Checking in: how are you?

Mornings can be horrible, absolute dread.. tired and zombie-brain unable to get things done. I’ve been (I know I‘m no exception many have this morning lows) Dealing with these Morning apocalyptic situations internally. I don’t eat foods after 7, No sugars, try to do yoga, do fitness (No not showing off.. I‘m just tired of feeling this way that’s why) Yet nothing seems to work.

The whole „cortisol“ thing I’ve been trying hard to get under control.,

Urghhh

I slept horribly last night and then I was very drowsy this morning from some anti nausea meds. But then I took a 2 hour nap and I feel perfectly fine now.

Doing chill today.

Feeling really good today, had an amazing workout, really glad I pushed through.

Feeling bad today and down, and i feel bad about feeling bad because some good things happened

A few things on my mind but nothing enough to ruin my ok mood.

I hopefully got some answers about my health issues. But I still feel like complete crap. Mood wise I'm fine thanks to the increase in Lamictal. I also slept real badly last night.

I actually didn't throw up a ton after around 7AM. I had to cut out soda and fast food entirely and a lot of junk food. But I think it will be worth it in the long run. I've already lost some weight and have saved some money.

Yesterday...was challenging. Anxiety sometimes surprises me out of nowhere, but it was combined with my inner knowing and sometimes it seems my body knows before I do, bc I'm wishing for something my body doesn't want. I'm ready to let my body do the talking, and let my inner wisdom guide me.

Today, I plan to read my book and shop for yarn

I've been a bit queasy and nauseated most of the day, but my energy levels were good and my mental health was fine. I tried sticking to light foods. I think I did fairly well.

In a really good place. Can see the sun still shining outside my window. Would love to be sitting outside for a while, but I am not dressed for it. And I am comfortable right now. Might go have a shower.

Lots of anxiety today: so I did a guided meditation with John Davisi and listened to some Dr. Claire Weekes from "Hope and Help for Your Nerves" (YouTube links below).

My day is going pretty good. My physical symptoms are fine. The people at the lab were nice. The store had everything in stock. The thing I ordered came and it turned out good. I was worried since the reviews were iffy. But yeah today has been one of my better days.

I separated from my spouse and told him that I’m emotionally detaching from him. Listened to Al-Anon podcasts to better prepare myself for my first meeting. So, I’m hangin in there. But it’s been an emotional day.

Been having a good week. This AM I am anxious about something though.

I'm trying my best today, but I feel like things are out of my control at this point so all I can do is handle how I deal with things.

I don't feel good. Its my dumb stomach. I napped for 45 minutes at 12:15 but it didn't help. I've had all my psych meds. I ate what I could which wasn't much. I just feel blah today.

I feel the weight of "shoulds."

Today was the first real bad day since starting the new meds. But I'm feeling ok now.

My day was terrible, and I have bad ones, but I am still wound up like a tick-clock.

I had a medication change and am worried about my one decent friend. I have

never felt quite like this before, it is like it won't turn off.

Really in a weird state of mind - feeling low and self-sabotaging.

I got a legit answer today about my health but I'm still sick and I don't have the energy to do much but lie in bed. I don't feel like emailing my therapist to tell her whats going on. Idk if she'll be annoyed. She'll probably be understanding.

I’m doing ok as long as I stay in the AC. The humidity is horrible.

Today I just feel blah physically. I can't keep my eyes open right now. Therapy was productive but I didn't really want to do it. I wonder if she could tell.

I am doing well today. As well as can be expected. I am sitting here watching my nephew gallantly protect the earth and destroy nasty alien civilizations, all via Xbox. As he put it, 'those stupid aliens never had a chance.'