[BrokenNBeautiful]

It's been a year now since my aunt passed away of cancer.

Am I normal?

Because I was doing better before and now I am crying in my sleep, dreaming about her and waking up Dane.

People say I am just nuts and dwelling on it.

Am I?

I don't mean to.

But it comes out in my sleep and i am so tired all the time.

I can't afford therapy, either.

B.

Grief comes in many forms. I dont think there is any time frame or any particular way to grieve. I lost my mother last Friday and my father in November.I had not seen my father for many years and yet I thought about him constantly. I decided to do my own special little farewell. I got a bunch of flowers and went down to the beach and put them in the water, and said a little prayer. Strangely this seemed to help. Perhaps you could try that. Take care.

[Champagne]

Hi Billi,

I hope this post works. I just checked my rating scores and so far only 2. Don't know what I've done.

What you are going through is normal.

You must have been very close to your aunt to cry even in your sleep.

When I have lost someone very dear, I wrote them a love letter or song.
Sometimes, I just play the song of a favourite artist, that just touches my soul and my emotions (in your case: hurt and loss). The words just give me the healing, comfort and soothing I need for that person I have lost and for that season of that particular emotion.

Depending HOW you remember her LOVE ACTION, Celebrate her BEING, her presence, and her WAY by going to her favourite shops, restaurants, viewing favourite movies, movie stars. Visit her favourite museums, botanical gardens, beach, city... home town.

I am sure she is watching you from where she is, and would love to embrace you and comfort you in your pain.

The good thing is she is not in pain anymore and has been loosened from the debilitation.

I am sure she knows you love her a lot. Your tears are a sure sign that she meant a lot to you.

Can you speak to mum or dad, who ever was her sibling about your care and love about her? Look at her childhood photos and get to know what she was like as a child with her family growing up. Have a memory day that you celebrate her and invite your cousins and friends and family who remember her. Suggestion... Wear her favourite colour and go to her favourite restaurant/cafe and order her favourite, meal,salad, cocktail, coffee, tea, glass of wine and dessert. The old Irish used to call this the WAKE.

Today, death becomes so clinical and hospitalized.
Ancient or olden traditions, was all about CELEBRATING LIFE... HAVING LIVED,LOVE AND LAUGHED.

Celebrate your Aunt. The tears are healing. Hormonally it is a good balancing mechanism the body needs.

I'll pray for more emotionally supporting friends for you.
GOD BLESS