[Yoshi]

To make a long story short, My best friend died when I was 14, He was always there for me, and made me feel so much better about myself, and would always be there when I needed to let some things out.

He got in an argument with his girlfriend, punched out a window, and it cut him really really really deep. He had to go get stitches, I think like 200? I'm not exacally sure how many but it was a lot.

Later that night, he had a cezure, his stitches split open, and he bled to death.

I miss him so much its rediculous, I cannot believe he's gone, it seems like he's still here.

His Ex-girlfriend called me, we lost touch, and we used to be very good friends.
She wants me to come over..But i'm not so sure I can ;[
She still lives at the house he stayed in, slept in, died in, and all of his stuff is still there.

I want to go talk with her, but seeing all his stuff, i'm not so sure if thats a good idea.
I tried going over there when he died, but I went in....and I ran right back out crying.

It might be good for me to go, to remmber all the good memmories we've had, but It might not be, It might be too depressing knowing he beld to death in there, unexpectedlly.

I would like some advice on this , Do you guys think I should go ? Should I just have her come over my house? I really want to go, but i'm really worried at the same time.

I still cant see how she lives there, its really sad and I miss him to death.
I try talking to other people, I try sharing how I feel, But It's not the same without him, nobody can replace him, and I will never forget him EVER.
He was to YOUNG !!! HE DID NOT DESERVE THIS ****

Atleast I will be up there with him one day, R.I.P Shawn ♥♥

[(JD)]

Are you sure all his stuff is out in the open?

Can you go and stay safe, or will it make you worse mentally.
There is a big difference between grieving and acting out from grief.

It can be a good thing for you, to both share your loss and hopefully even begin to talk about the good things about him. That's part of the process too.

Make sure you can leave when you know you need to, and drive or be safe afterwards, if you go.



You're mourning, whether you go or not.

[Yoshi]

Yeah, I asked my friend (Mary, His ex girlfriend who still lives in his house) All of the things he collected, his paintings and drawlings are still hung up on the wall, his clothes are even still on the shelves.

I could go and still be safe, But I would cry and get depressed, I miss him so much :/

But in a way I think it would be good, just to see his stuff, and remmber all the good memmories and how much fun we had in that house playing video games and stuff !

I would love to go there and talk to her about all the good times, But I think It will have to be a slow process, because I dont want to jump right into everything and get to overwhelmed.

[Sabrina]

I don't have any advice but wanted to say that I am very sorry for your loss.

[Yoshi]

Thanks Sabrina

[KathyM]

My condolences ((Rainbowz))

I hope you two can spend your time together remembering the love, laughter and good memories you shared with Shawn.

[Yoshi]

Yeah I hope so too I will find out tommarow I'll keep you guys updated.

I'm sorry, Rainbowz. I'm sure you two will have lots to talk about!
Together, I'm sure you will give each other more strength.

[Yoshi]

Yes, we will have tons to talk about !! Alot to catch up on lol

Yes I hope so, I just hope it wont be to to stressful >.<

[lynn P.]

((Rainbowz)) - I'm sorry for the loss of your friend as well. I agree with JD.....it may difficult to see all his stuff. For some it might be healing and for others it could be triggering, so be careful. I lost my own brother to suicide 2 yrs and 4 months ago.

[Yoshi]

I'm so sorry for the loss of your brother !!! Lynn.P

I will most deffinatally be careful

Same here, Lynn!

Did you go yet, Yoshi?

[Yoshi]

Yepp, I actually got enough courage to go, It actually brought back good memmories, and I liked being in there, but when I was leaving, I started crying, =/ But I'm glad I went, It was nice to see all of his paintings and drawlings, and I still have the one he made me, and I think I can finally take it out of my basement and put it in my room. I thought that it would make me more depressed, but it actually makes me feel better.

Thanks everyone for the support !

[Muser]

That took a lot of courage. You did a good thing. I'm glad it turned out well.

It probably helped Shawn's girlfriend as well, to have someone who cared about Shawn to reminisce with.

[Yoshi]

Yes it was very good. And I'm actually going back this week

I'm glad I took the step, and Shawn will always be missed, but he's in are hearts ♥♥♥♥

[Muser]

I'm glad you are doing this now. Better to explore your feelings in the present.

I wish you well

[Yoshi]

Thanks Muser

[MTAYY16]

wow! thats awful i know what your going through a couple months ago a guy well my friend had a heart attack because of his weight it wasnt the greatist thing ever. the funeral home squeezed him into a tiny casket, his mom and his family all looked joyful that he died

[Yoshi]

Awee, I'm sorry Emo Lover.

Way to go, Yoshi!! I'm so very proud of you.

Emo Lover, I'm sorry for the loss. Maybe his family was thinking of the good times with him?

[Yoshi]

Awee Thanks OM !!!! !!!! <333 :]