My cousin, Travis <3

My cousin, Travis, died on June the 2nd. He was 21 years old. My mom and I found out while we were driving out of town(visiting my grandma). I called my grandma to tell her that we were coming and she told me that Travis shot his self in the head. I was shocked to hear that. But the whole time I was hoping and praying to God that he was okay and that he would recover. About 10 minutes later, my mom and I found out he was deceased. My heart fell right out of my chest. I froze up and just started crying. I couldn't believe that my cousin was gone. And I still cant believe that he's gone.

I'm not sure how he died, actually. At first my family was saying that he shot his self in the head. But now, their saying that someone else did it. I don't know what to believe. I didn't know this until my mom told me about it, but Travis has had a hard life. He's gone through things that no one should have to go through.

I remember the last time I saw him. I was at my grandma's house and he came over. He gave a big hug because we haven't seen each other in a long time. Then we were watching a movie, "The Preachers Kid''. During the movie, there was a scene where the guy smacks the girl in the face. And he said to me, "Never let a guy hit you. If so, you come get one of us(By that he meant him, my mom, or any adult). I'll show him a thing or two(In his playful tone. But he meant what he said.). After a while, he was getting ready to go. He gave me 2 more big hugs and he showed me some of his playful karate moves. At that moment, I felt so happy to spend some time with him. And I was set on having a better, closer relationship with him. But unfortunately, that will never happen...

Travis was always a fun, goofy, happy-go-lucky person. Every time he was around someone, he always made them smile and laugh. That was just the way he was. I miss him more than words can ever describe. I try to think positive or say things positive like, he's in a better place now, he a little piece of blue sky, and he's a bright shining star at night. But honestly, none of these things help me enough to stop the pain that I feel. I don't know what to do? I just hope that Travis is at peace now.

R.I.P
Travis

I'm truly sorry for your loss. Sounds like he was a great guy. I like the way you picture him now. Still watching over you. Hold on to that

I am sorry for your loss.

I'm so very sorry. Such a young man, and he sounds like he was a very nice guy. How tragic. Regardless of how it happened, he was much too young. I'm so very very sorry.

My prayers are with you ~ and I'll say some for him too. God bless you and your family. Hugs, Lee

Thank you everyone for your kind words. I greatly appreciate it. God bless all of you.

I am so very sorry for your loss. Sending the warmest of thoughts your way.....