[bamfmama]

2 Weeks ago I found out I was pregnant and couldn't have been happier, everyone in my family was excited, we even had started preparing my house and moving rooms, ect. I was approximately 6 Weeks along abs had just had an ultrasound with a heartbeat on Friday morning. I was in love the minute we knew, but I feel like the little flicker of a heartbeat on the screen solidified it for my boyfriend., later that night I had started to lightly bleed and called my doctor, she said strict bedrest, which I had been doing since earlier anyways. As the night progressed I bled more and passed a lot of tissue, went to the er and found it what I had already suspected, that I had miscarried. I have never felt so much anguish and despair and just soul swallowing sadness. I can't sleep more than a couple hours at a time, no more that d hours/day total and I can barely eat. All I do is cry; my body is just tight with pain from crying constantly. Everyone is telling me that its a blessing it happened so early or that this was meant to be or that this was nature correcting itself or that I'll just have another. I'm dying, every cramp is a reminder of what I should have instead, every evacuation of blood and tissue is a testament that this nightmare actually happened. I realize that 1 in every 4 pregnancies end in this but it doesn't make mine easier. I'm looking for someone to blame or hate and coming up dry. I can't live my life lie this but I don't want to move forward. My heart is broken and beyond repair.

[lynn P.]

((bamfmama)) - I'm very sorry for your deep loss. My SIL just had this happen at the same 6th week time. Its normal to grieve, but please get help if you feel its serious. There's an angel looking over you now I believe. I hope you feel better in time.

[NWgirl2013]

Poor Babygirl ~ I am so sorry. Please allow yourself this time to grieve. It is normal to feel so deeply the loss of your hoped for baby.

Yes, it happens to a lot of people & no that doesn't make it any easier. You just have to let yourself feel these feelings, and go through each day as best you can, and I promise you, it will get easier. Even if you can't see it right now, I promise, this pain will lessen with time.

There is a reason women carry the young; we are far stronger than the men. Stronger, in our hearts & bodies than even we ourselves know. Please take care, you're in my prayers.

[gayleggg]

I'm so sorry for your loss and that you have to go through the pain and grief you are feeling.
Gayle

[Sabrina]

I am so sorry bamfmama

[eskielover]

It's important to be able to grieve the loss of your baby. Time heals as with the loss of all family, but it hurts in the process of that little life you didn't get a chance to get to know.

Your hurt is normal to feel & don't allow anyone to tell you otherwise. Therapy can help you process your feelings if you start to be unable to handle the grief on your own.

[Gus1234U]

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