[Grey Matter]

I cannot say I've learned anything life changing since my brother left. I learned that you can die young. I learned that I am stronger than I assumed. I made it through the year. As did my sister, my mom, and my dad.

I have no words to encompass how much I miss him. I cannot write into poetry the void I have felt since he left. But I can write that I never knew it was possible to miss someone so deeply, and know that they are not coming home.

As the poem in my signature says:
"I loved my friend
He went away from me
There's nothing more to say
The poem ends,
Soft as it began-
I loved my friend."

I will find the strength to let you go. I just need to miss you more first.

[pegasus]

Teen Idle >>>>

[don964964]

I will find the strength to let you go. I just need to miss you more first.

teen idle hugs

that saying is hits home for me ....
I feel sadness , anger , loneliness , and a broken heart..

so happy for you making it through the year big HUGS

[yellowted]

there will always be a part of him in your heart that will never let go of you, you will never really let go of eachother, love is stronger than life. (((hugs)))

[Grey Matter]

thank you all <3

"Love is stronger than life". I need to keep that in mind.

I have never missed him more... god, my brain has finally accepted it's been a year. And now he isn't coming back.

[yellowted]

it is almost ten years since my partner passed away, and i still miss him like it was yesterday.
you will never totally stop missing him, you will however learn to live with the hole he has left in your life and with the pull he has on your heart.
i have learnt to accept that some days i will be fine, but some days i will miss him more and that it is ok to cry and to talk about him. you will never forget him and it is natural to miss him especially on special days like i know the days that will be difficult his birthday, death day funeral day , christmas etc, so now factor these into my life by taking them as me days (no work or visitors) so i can go with the flow, cry, visit his grave, send up a rocket or chinese lantern etc whatever i feel i need to do to make me feel ok the next day (it usually involves a lot of crying and a bottle of wine) i prepare my meals the day before so i don't have to shop or cook, and always end the day with a hot bubble bath surrounded by scented candles.
i have a glass lantern on my windowsil in which i place and light a tea light candle when i am really missing my man, it really helps.

[Speed3]

I know what you are going through. I think it is hardest thing a human being can go through.

If we make it through than we must be warriors.

I share in your pain and your heartache

[gayleggg]

Losing loved ones is not easy. Living and knowing you will never see them again is hard. I have lost loved ones, too, and still mourn their loss. i miss them all the time. Making it through the first year I found to be the hardest but on holidays, anniversaries and other family occaisions I find it still difficult. I'm glad you made it through the first year and found you had strength you didn't know you had. I'm sorry you had to lose him so young. Take care of yourself.
Gayle