[Seethestars]

Grace was 23 and not only my beautiful daughter but my best friend She committed suicide september14 of last year My daughter Sarah was about a year and a half older suffered with undiagnosed early onset bipolar disorder since she was11 until she was 15 and due to the delay in diagnosis and trauma from numerous suicide attempts and hospitalization and they said her behavior was manipulative and attention seeking. She was treated poorly and had suffered from anxiety from a very young age which made it so difficult to function. her mood was so unstableand she was so impulsive she was a high suicide risk. grace and I shared the pain watching Sarah become more and more unstable She would run away often so the police were frequent visitors Sarah would be rude to them or laugh at them or be so nice depending on her mood. they didn't like her and I tried to stay on good terms with them I could go on and on but it's too sad. I still remember when Grace asked me what are we going to do if Sarah dies It was such a sad moment and I knew I couldn't say that will never happen. it was so hard but I smiled at her and said we will be fine but we must appreciate every minute she is with us now Sarah was hospitalized today and I love her so much She loved Gracie so much. about 2 years ago Grace began to have trouble with anxiety She was sleeping more and became irritable at times for no apparent reason. she finally admitted she was very depressed but I will be fine and don't ask me to see a psychiatrist or anyone and 'm not taking any medication. She said she saw what they did to Sarah and was disgusted. Grace and I ,moved to Pa and Sarah was living with her boyfriend in nj I went to visit Sarah in Nj and Grace was doing better and needed to stay to take care of the cats She didn't mind. She had a new boyfriend who was very nice He was going to stay with her when I was gone. I called her Friday night Sept 13 We talked and she said everything was fine The last thing she said to me was I love you mommy I told her I loved her too and would call her the next day. I got a call the next morning. It was a detective and he said I'm sorry to tell you this but your daughter Grace passed away. I was screaming and Sarah ran downstairs and took the phone. she screamed what happened to my sister the detective said she took her own life Her boyfriend found her when he woke up. She had hung herself. I don't remember the next few days. I have to stop writing now. I miss her so much. I've never felt this kind of pain before I want her back

[Pikku Myy]

So, so sorry to hear about your loss All I can offer is huge hugs It took me almost three years to accept and understand when my best friend did the same... and our babies were the same age. I still think about why 17 years later...

[gayleggg]

That is a lose I hope I never have to face. You have my deepest sympathy. Grace sounds like she was a wonderful daughter and you must have made great memories together. No on can ever take those away from you. She would have wanted you to remember the good times.

[TerryL]

i am so sorry for your loss. it is heartbreaking.

[lizzyjb]

So sorry. Be strong.

[makayla55]

I'm so sorry to hear that about your lovely daughter. I believe there's no greater pain than losing someone closest to your heart. It breaks my heart to hear this.

I am so sorry for your loss. I cannot even begin to imagine how you must feel. My oldest daughter is 19 now and went through a very dark period in her life and this was my fear for her. Thank God it never happened. I am deeply sorry that it did happen for your beautiful daughter. May God give you strength and see you through this.

[Nammu]

I'm so sorry.

How are you doing today?