[michael30]

I'm new to this site and I'm glad I found it. My father was going back to liquor and I was going to confront my mom. I couldn't come to grips with how I was going to approach her. before I got the chance I received a call she had been arrested. violence is not apart of our family. I found myself going into depression and went to out doctor for advice. My symtoms were that of major depression and he put me on meds. 1 1/2 yrs later and countless events my father committed suicide. I have not been myself since. I have been placed on a new med ever six months and have recenlty gone into major depression and getting scared. I haven't been dealing real well the last two months and have found my self crying uncontrollably and have that pain of his loss greater that ever before. I have been looking for support groups but none are close. I can't go with my mom because I ended up being there for here and my true feelings wouldn't come out. I just miss him too much

chris....i'm so sorry about your dad...i hope that we can give you some comfort here......

[bebop]

you didn't say how long ago he passed. what you are feeling is perfectly normal part of grieving. I am very sorry for your loss. life will never be the same after you lose a parent or anyone close to you for that matter but especially a parent or child. there are bereavement support groups at alot of hospitals that you could go to without your mom. my thoughts are with you

[(JD)]

It sounds like you are doing honest grieving for your dad. (((hugs))) It's ok. Try and tell yourself that this won't last a long time, and allow yourself to cry and grieve without thinking that the sadness won't go away, or will plunge you into a long term depression. Thinking that it is temporary will help that NOT happen. The sadness of grieving will then come and go for a time... if you remember this, you might not become afraid of it.

I understand about not being able to be there for your mom. That happens sometimes. She is an adult and needs to have other adults be there for her, or to rely upon the professional team to help her. She needs to follow their advice. You can send a card, telling her you wish you could spend more time but that right now you can't, or such?

i am glad that you are posting here and we will be more than happy to talk and listen.......you need to express yourself as much as you want to...........xoxoxo pat

[Fuzzybear]

((((((((((((((((Chris))))))))))))))

(((chris)))