People without Parents

My Mother died in 2008 and my Father just died this year in January. I feel so alone now even though I have two younger brothers. I am the oldest so I am now the matriarch of the family, the teller of stories and keeper of memories. We three are the last on this branch of the family tree. My brothers have no sons to carry on the name. The only time I hear from them is when I call and I usually have to leave a message. Sometimes I think if I never called again I would probably not hear from them. I do not understand this because we were always pretty close. I would like to just pack up and move but I have a son who lives in the same town. There is a certain freedom of not having anyone there to answer to so to speak, but it is also a very lonely feeling.

I lost my dad last year. He was my rock. My mom is still around but she is very flighty. I have a sister but she has made it a point to stay away from most of the family. She also lives in another state.

When my dad got sick and we did not think he would make it I called her. My dad hid his illness from us so we would not worry. I get a call on a Sunday that said come to the hospital and say goodby to your dad. My grandmother and I and my uncle were in shock. My grandmother see's him almost everyday but had no clue.

I called her to let her know. Of course I got her answering machine and I left a message. On he way to the hospital she started blowing up my celling phone crying and wanting to know what was going on. My mom to. they had not been together for over 10 years.

She did fly out with one of her kids. She flew in on a Saturday. My mom had a party for her and her daughter on Sunday she saw my dad for 2 hours on Monday. Tuesday she came with her daughter for 2 hours then my dad did not here from her till Friday. She asked to come over he said he was tired. She went out partying that night and then got on an airplane.

she made a big thing on Facebook about not being close to family because she lives so far away.

For me I have a husband and kids but I do feel so alone. I miss my dad so much it hurts and my husband can't always understand that since he grew up with his grandparents.

Take care but just know your not alone.