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Old May 04, 2015, 07:46 AM
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In the beginning of 2013, my Mother died from cancer. She in various parts of her body, in the lungs. brain and other areas. My Dad and I took care of her as best as we could. End the end she could leave her bed, she had a hard time breathing and she was seeing strange stuff.
It has been 2 years but it still hurts and worst of all other family members since have not been in good health either. My dad had to have triple bypass for his heart at the end of 2013 and he also has kidney disease. Recently in the past month, my brother has also been diagnosed with lung cancer. I don't know what to do and I am afraid of losing my Dad and Brother as well.
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Old May 05, 2015, 12:24 PM
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Hugs to you, it is hard not having a certainty to what is to come. I feel for you
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Old May 05, 2015, 02:07 PM
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Hi Animarie,
I was deeply saddened when i read your post and felt that i should share my experiences with you. I too lost my mother to cancer in 2014, and have had family members fall ill. So i understand what you are going through to some extent. It is one of the most challenging things to ever have to go through, and i know its rubbish for the time being. Just remember: 'This too shall pass' and at some point things will get better, no matter how bad they feel right now. xxx
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Old May 06, 2015, 12:02 AM
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I'm so sorry for your loss. Blwi is right it's so hard not knowing what's to come. If it helps at all we're here for you all the way.
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Old May 07, 2015, 02:20 PM
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Thanks for the kind words.
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Old May 13, 2015, 01:27 PM
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I am sorry you lost your mother, I have went through a similar experience. My mom was diagnosed with Stage IIIC Ovarian Cancer in 2012, and spent the last 18 months of her life dealing with chemo, complications from chemo, and finally succumbing to all of it last January. It was a very hard road, I was her main caregiver so I pretty much watched her through the surgery, the recovery, the chemo, the "remission" for 6 months, then chemo again and then watched her deteriorate before my eyes. It was very hard to go through - and the chemo left an infection in her throat, so she had to have a tracheotomy and lived with a hole in her throat to breathe and talk out of until she died. I can't even begin to explain how hard life is without my mom here, how much she is missing, how much I miss her and wish I could talk to her, but I have begun to get to a place where I am glad that she is in no more pain, and doesn't have to live with the trach. She HATED it. So many times they promised her it would come out, and then another complication, and another, and finally she gave up being optimistic about it coming out. I don't want to say she gave up trying to live, but she was just tired of fighting 24 hours a day, you know? I think for awhile I was selfish and wanted her to stay, for me, for my daughter, but I have started to realize just recently that she wanted to stay, but she couldn't - not in the way she wanted to, which was cancer free and pain free. She had suffered for many years with chronic pain and heart problems that honestly.... I just have to accept that she is where she belongs now, even though it hurts a lot to think about her not being here. And believe me, getting to that point has been TERRIBLE. I have hurt myself mentally sitting here struggling with the fact that I wasn't good enough, I didn't do enough for her, I should have done this, should have taken her to a better cancer center, should have pushed the doctors more, should have spent more time with her. I was so caught up in trying to figure out HOW to get her to live, that I neglected the time she had left and ultimately I was left with my mom laying in a hospice bed, dying, and I was asking for her forgiveness, telling her how sorry I was and how much I loved her and was going to miss her. I begged, for a couple days, to not go, I didn't know how I was going to do this without her, and I have lived with my regret since then. But recently I have come to the conclusion that I cannot let the past dictate my future, or I will never live in the present, only the past.

I totally didn't mean to write a book (lol) it all kind of came out, but I want you to know I am feeling a similar connection with you, and I am here if you ever need or want to talk.
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Old May 29, 2015, 01:40 PM
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My mom was diagnosed with breast cancer in 2001. Then lung cancer in 2003. She was given a year to live, but survived until 2011. It was a long, courageous battle, radiation, various chemos. I was fortunate that she lived those 10 years. But it forever changed my life, my view of the world, everything. She was my best friend, and I went with her to nearly every treatment. I am glad she is not suffering, but it is still horrible, everyday ( not gonna sugarcoat it). I also had an Aunt pass away rather suddenly, 6 weeks before my mom died. And then last year my other remaining aunt died. So in a way I have lost all mother-ly figures in the span of 4 years in my life. My dad hasn't been exactly healthy, either. I am an only child, and it's tough. I've tried to act "okay" for many years, and only recently started being more honest with myself and getting counseling. I am currently out of work due to my anxiety, but I'm working on it.
Sorry to also write a book, but sometimes it is helpful (at least for me) to realize others are going through similar things and you are not alone. If you ever want/need to talk, please feel free to message me. I don't have any answers, but I do have an understanding ear!
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Old Jun 04, 2015, 08:47 AM
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