Too Many Goodbyes

Well as I sat here and tried to explain the seriousness of my recent PTSD episode and severe depression I came to the conclusion that it was tweeked by the loss of important people in my life lately.
My Grandma (foster) died in August 07 and a short several weeks after I lost my Mom (foster)----- the most important person in my life. Mind you she is not my biological mom -took me in in my late teens -- but my mom no less. she saved my life i was in a living hell and she brought me out. I have several siblings (foster) who are also there for me and wonderful and of course dad (foster)
@ months after the daeth of Nana and MOM I lost one of my clients -- They say you cannot have favorites but - he truly was one of my favorites. He developed alzhemiers young due to his having Down's Syndrom. I miss him dearly, I try to remember how much he has given to me.
Loss of mom is probably the most horrific loss for me -- She was quite sick and I thought I was ready when i said goodbye but I guess not considering the state I've been in the last few weeks.
I wish my mom could have been with me longer --- i am so much a diffrent person due to her unending love and support and now she is gone - I want her back.

(((((VANNA)))))
It is very hard to lose so many people in your life in a short time. It is good that you have the memories that will last a lifetime of your mother and your client that has passed on. Take care (((VANNA))). Soidhonia

(((vanna))))

(((((( Vanna )))))))

I'm so sorry. I completely understand the devistation that comes with so much loss....I lost my parents early on and had difficulties growing up with others, too. And the last few years, we've experienced several deaths in my husband's side of the family.

Right now I feel like I'm adrift, as if I've lost my place ~ I hope for you the acute pain begins to subside.

(((((( Vanna )))))

Over the last three years I have lost my fiance, best friend, cherished pet and last yr my father. I don't even feel anymore.