[rawrr]

We all have people we dont get along with.
And some of us even hated people.
There was one girl.
My brothers ex girlfriend.
someone id known since i was in elementary school.
She put me through such hell.
If anyone has read and of my previous posts, you will know that i was raped.
She was one of my rapists best friends.
She spread rumors about me, told my friends that i was a liar that just wanted attention.
She ruined my life.
And for the first time, hate filled my heart.
She said horrible things to me.
We even got in a fist fight at school.
Things between tianna and I were very known about, and just horrible.
A couple months after me getting suspended for fighting her, tianna and her boyfriend were in a terrible wreck.
Tianna died, along with her boyfriend.
I try to forget about our past, and make peace.
however, something in my heart, just wont let me forgive her.
for what she did.
But in a way, i feel as if we have made peace now.
and that now that shes gone, she knows what really happened to me.
Maybe thats wishful thinking.
I have many mixed feelings about this situation.

[Soidhonia]

Hello (((WHO))). I am sorry for the torment that you had to endure for someone elses insincerity. The main issue is that you dont blame yourself for what happened to Tianna. You need to focus on a state of recovery you can manage to help you feel better emotionally. Holding on to the past is not necessary since she is gone at this time, but getting closure to the situation is a necessity if the past is still causing you harm from a lack of closure at this time. Therapy can help you move along with your life without having to feel guilty for someone elses issues and problems. Take care and best wishes. Soidhonia