My toxic father died yesterday

My father died yesterday from a pretty bad case of bronchitis at the age of 70. His health was never really in the best shape anyways and he was a high functioning alcoholic. You know it’s interesting, I never really had the best relationship with him and he was never affectionate or loving towards me. He was also very critical and had delusions of things like gang stalking. But yet only now do I realize that he also had good things about him and that he wasn’t a bad person.

Thank you Dannii for sharing. I am sorry for your loss. Universal speed to your father. It is very difficult and confusing to grieve for someone with whom we did not have a great relationship. I hope you will be enveloped by the support you need. Losing a parent is mind-altering. I wish you peace and hope.

It's really sad and I want to appreciate that you shared this incident for making us aware.

I'm sorry for your loss.

Hi Dannii91. I am sorry for the loss of your dad. Our parents seem to be connected with us in a very primal level. Even if they do not turn out as we hoped for, it is rough to lose them.

I am glad to hear you are finding good things about him. That sounds like a great topic for a gratitude journal. That helped me go past the grief and loss and see my dad for who he was.

I lost my dad and it seemed that my grief was more about for the loss of my identity and the loss of the possibility of having the type of relationship I hoped to have with him. I guess I got what I got and much of the rest was my expectations and sorrow that I waited so long to try to make peace with him.

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