[JustForToday]

This is my first post. I don't know if it's ok, I just needed to get it out.

Dear Mom,

It's been 7 months and every day I miss you more. It's not fair that you were taken so suddenly. You knew you were sick but you didn't want to tell us because you knew we'd worry, and you'd never want that for us. Sometimes I think I should have realized and known you were sick and I blame myself for your death. It's really hard sometimes when I'm just a little angry at you for not telling us and not getting to the doctors in time. I will always wonder if we made the right decisions those few weeks you were in the hospital.

I'm always confused and lost without you. You were my rock, my guide, my best friend and my house mate. I miss talking to you about the little things...the new restaurant in town and the store that just closed, the neighbor's new addition, etc. I miss talking to you about every major decision I make. It seems that every single thing I do I feel you are missing.

You would still be proud of us. We kept all the traditions through all the holidays, tried to replicate all your cooking, but it's just not the same without you. I even hosted Easter dinner all by myself. Your granddaughter will be graduating from middle school and going to high school next year. She is getting more and more mature every day! Another granddaughter just got engaged, and your grandson is getting married in July. But you already know all that, right? Because you are still watching over us, right mom?

[onlymedid]

I know just what you mean about missing her and feeling like she was your guide and your rock...my mom was the same way before she passed in February.
It is really hard to lose a parent, but when you lose one so suddenly it is even harder, I think.

She is still watching over you and your family, I believe that!

Sending you big *HUGS*,

BJ

[gimmeice]

((((((((((((JustForToday))))))))))
I agree that it's very hard to lose a parent.

[I_WMD]

JustForToday ,,,,,,,>>>>..... First Post and Great it is , as the Easter meal you served up ,,, and I would bet Those directions were still there in Your Mothers Voice ,,,

Oh Dear ,, Now Hun ,, you know I always add that >> But that 'll be our secret >> I call it my little sprinkle of Love .

[GinaM]

Any decisions made out of love (and yours clearly were) were the right decisions - that is all any mother wants.

[Soidhonia]

(((JUSTFORTODAY))). I am sorry for your loss. It is good that you can share your feelings and your concerns with Psych Central. Take care. Soidhonia

[deepblue]

I lost my mom jan 9th 2008 unexpectedly and i too feel lost and distracted is another word i would choose. i talk to her most nights hoping she will give me a sign she is watching over me still being my rock my guidance ,nothing yet though!!!!! just remembering the last time we spoke and wishing she would take this pain away in my heart that seems rooted. I am sorry for your loss and hugs to you.

love blue