[itsjustme111]

If it could be so easy as to ask God for something, like a deal to help those in pain. If only we could bargain for the life that is leaving me, if I could make my mom better.

She is dying. She is out of options. The pain and fear in her voice, heart breaking beyond describable words. Please don't take her away. I beg you to let her be here with us. She is my best friend, my everything. She is my Mother.

I wish the pain and hurting to cease for this special lady whom I adore. She does not deserve whats been handed to her. Let me give her my life, my body and soul. She wants to fight, she wants life, so give her mine. I pray for forgiveness, but most of all, I pray for her life.

Justy

[Leslie]

Amen

((((((((((((((((((((((JUSTY)))))))))))))))))))))

I am here for you. My dad was my best friend . I understand how aweful it can be to lose someone close to you. Seeing them hurting is so hard, you just want to take the pain away.

We love you Justy,
Leslie

[wisewoman]

Justy, strength to you my friend.

[itsjustme111]

Oh my dear friend. ((((((((((((Leslie))))))))))). I sure love talking to you on the phone. Your such a kind person, so much to offer.

I know how close you were and still are to your dad. He sounds like he was a special man. I know how much you truly miss him and I am sorry that you lost him all too soon.

Leslie, I would love to take my mom's pain away. My tummy turned into knots talking to her, I tried so hard to keep it "together". But when she fell apart, I could vision her sitting there, trembling in sadness. I want to take this away so badly, and I can't stand being so flipping helpless.

I will always support my mom. I have never judged her during any of this. When she does say that she has had enough, I just listen. My sisters get mad at her, tell her this is wrong. My mom now feels like she can't tell them how see feels. She always tells me, everyday, how much she appreciates that I have never done this to her, and she feels safe to vent her despair to me. I cried myself to sleep, thinking of how can I possible help her. I guess just being here for her is all I can do.

I know life is not fair. My mom just lost someone she knows. This shook her up very badly. These people she knows where she lives just lost their 1 and a half year old. The poor little guy fell down some stairs, killing him instantly with a broken neck. She just kept saying why honey, why did that little boy only have a year and a half of life?

His mother is a wreck, of course feeling so much guilt. My heart goes out to this family in their desperate time of need. Please say a prayer with me for them. I do know many here are not religious, I don't want to offend anyone. I can't imagine what they are going through, like I say, damn it; life is not fair.

His funeral is next week, my mom will be attending. Sadness fills the air, doesn't it!!

Thanks u two, I wish you strength as well. I love u dearly Leslie. You are such a wonderful lady. Looking forward to talking to u soon. I adore your accent; lol, how cute it is. hehe.

I am looking at a scanner right now, wanting to buy it. I will someday put a picture of me on here, then u can see me when I babble on here; lol. Scary thought; lol.

Justy

[(JD)]

((((Justy)))))

[SeptemberMorn]

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Justy}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} I lost my mother over 20 yrs ago and I still miss her terribly. We manage to get through it though, Hun.

I'm praying for you, your mom and her friend.

[itsjustme111]

Hey, thanks both of you. This is the hardest thing ever. I wish I could make it easier for her.

I am sorry that you lost your mom so long ago. You must have been so very young. I believe that you miss her terribly.

I guess for now, its so real. The hope part, well I can't help to have lost this. When a doctor tells someone that now its just a "making you comfortable", heart breaking for her.

What do you say to someone? I can tell her how much I love her. I can tell her to vent all she wants. I can tell her to hang in here with us. But I can't tell her that it will be okay. I can't tell her that this is fair. All we can do is pray. Maybe something will suddenly be discovered, a new treatment. I do know they are thinking about something new. Its unlikely to even use, but mention of this as a final attempt is possible. But in reality, her doctor is saying, "I am sorry."

Thanks for the prayers. (((((((((((((((((((everyone)))))))))))))))))),

thinking of all of you.

Justy

[gloria]

Sometimes it's hard to find the right words to say, but the living feeling are here. Know that I and many here trully care about you and your mom.

Lots of love to you.

(((((justme)))))
You touch my heart with your sincerity.
My thoughts and prayers are with you.
Jon

[itsjustme111]

Hey all of u. Thanks so much, this means a great deal to come here and read. Your all so wonderful.

I know how much u all care; I feel the same. I know I have not been in here much, my own personal reasons. A little fear I suppose and my thoughts have been so negative I did not want to worry anyone.

((((Ozzie)))), yes your right, I do have tons of support here. Sorry about your mom and dad. I can read your pain and I feel for u.

((((gloria)))), thanks dear. Lots of love back. Words can be hard to find. Just knowing that you are all here is what makes it what it is for me and for all that come here.

((((Jonalexa)))); wow, good to see you. I have thought of you so much and miss you being around. How are u?? I do read the times when u come in. But its true when I say I miss your humour and kindness. Thanks so much for this. I am thinking of u too sweetie.

I wanted to add that I spoke to my mom last night. She is sounding so much better. Her doctor called again. Apparently they held a meeting regarding my mom and they want to try something new. Its a trial experiment that has been successful so far. She has to go next week to see if she will qualify and if she does; well they are going to try this. I feel the hope is back in my dear mothers voice and I thank God for this. Who knows what the outcome will be, but hey its a shot. This is pretty much the last step, but this treatment sounds really great. I wish I had the name of it but did not write it down when she told me about it. Like I say, its new and still in the trial periods. I am so excited for her!!!! See, hope is always here with us, even when we don't always see it. I will keep u all updated.

Thanks for the support,

Justy

[Crazy_Charlie]

(((((((((((((((((Justy))))))))))))))
I know how you feel, I lost my dad, the dearest person in my life.

Charlie