[Raindropvampire]

Since the 19th of January:

Possible trigger:

My cat died giving birth and all the kittens died

, hubby got hold of some laced pot and died from an overdose of fentanyl but they got him back, hubby also got covid then pneumonia, mom was in the hospital all of March and the beginning of April with sepsis, car is acting up starting to get really bad and I don't know how we are going to afford another one, hubby and I almost got divorced, I got sick as a dog last saturday talking like my O2 was at 86 when I got to the ER so they almost made me stay so I missed the entire week so now I only have 2 days of PTO to last me until august because I used so much what with hubby and mom and me being sick. Just got back to work this saturday, now my mom is getting sick again, they messed up her short term disability so right now she's not getting paid and she's really freaking out she will lose the house, hubby got his SSI suspended but at least we got it fixed and last but not least my cousin who's like a second dad because I spent most of my summers with him and his kids so I could escape my home life...he had a heart attack a couple days ago. They put in two stents because of a blockage and he was doing pretty good then a few hours ago his heart stopped. They got it going again but he was unresponsive for about an hour or two. Right now he is responsive but in real bad shape. So yeah life is just kind of sticking it in and breaking it off right now

Dealing with all of this is why I've been MIA from here for so long. Just kind of shutting down and hiding

[unaluna]

Rain, I'm so sorry.

[Breaking Dawn]

That really is way too much for anyone. I hope you're ok.

[CANDC]

Oh no this sounds so rough for you. Hope you find ways to self care in the midst of all this.

[Raindropvampire]

My self care has been compartmentalizing like crazy I think my compartments have their own compartments.

I just keep reminding myself this isn't the first time my life has blown up and it won't be the last. I made it through all the others, I'll make it through this.

For whatever reason (bad luck, I kicked puppies in a former life or something like that ) About every 5-10 years the universe decides my life needs to blow up and see if I'll break or not. Heck if I can make it through 10 months that had 11 funerals and everything else that went wrong I figure I can make it through damn near anything.

I'm just so tired

[Breaking Dawn]

God bless you, Raindrop!!