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I feel so much sadness today, I miss my nana so much, tomorrow is the anniversry of her death, of the car accident.
I honestly haven't been to her grave since the day we buried her.
I feel so overwhelmed by all of this, I never got to grive, I was so doped up from the pain pills I had to have just to make it to the funeral.
All of this grief brings up sadness for my Mimi my greatgrandmother who passed away 6 months after my Nana died.
Just so many little reminders everywhere, of both of them, I cryed all last night, I found the last birthday cards my nana gave me and my mimi gave me.
So sad, so full of tears, there is this void and nothing can ever replace it, I don't know what to do,

[purplebutterfly]

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Wish I had words or some kind of advice but I'm sorry, I don't.
You are a good person and you matter, I am so sorry for your loss.

[Der_Sohn_des_Leides]

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PM me anytime; it's okay to grieve.



J

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my thoughts and prayers are with you
I know how much this hurts
muffy

[Typo]

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Thank you all for the hugs, they help, I'm trying to focus on all the good memories I had with them, and how I am never without them because they live in my heart and in my memories
It's just so hard, just so many things they have missed they would have loved to seen, prom, graduation, all the plays, birthdays, all of that.

I just miss them so much, I was so blessed to have such strong and loving women in my life, my mimi and my nana where like two more mothers, I spent so much of my childhood with them, bouncing back and forth. All the stories, all the lullabies, all the silly games.
Sometimes I wish I was 7 just so I can see them again, to hear their voices again, to give them hugs and see the smiles on their faces.
I feel so bad, my little sister never got that, or at least won't rember it. She didn't get to have them in her life like she should have.
I feel so guilty, so responsible.

((Silversparrow )))))))
Know that your grandmothers watch over you even now
Know that they are smiling at you
SO proud of you
Hold all those good memorys tight to you
never feel guilty, as they loved you very very much
muffy

[vetswife]

(((Silversparrow)))

I don't know what to say. I cry just reading your story.

Don't feel responsible, keep those memories close to you. Tell your little sister all about them as much as possible it will be good for the both of you, even if you've repeated the same story a thousand times, keep on telling it.

Grieving is a necessary process and a long one at that. It's been 6 years since my Dad passed and I still cry for him once in a while. I cried in the fetal position for about a week after he passed, but I had to move on, dust myself off and go back to my life. Just as you do, it's hard. Anniversaries, holidays, birthday any special day, are especially hard. Still talk to them. Keep making them proud and take comfort in the fact that they are watching you, cheering you on.

Take care of yourself.