[RozG]

i know this is gonna be moved coz it don't count that i grieve for fact i lost me when i was 11 years old. something was done to me that left me with empty head, had to learn who i was by being repeatedly told, had to learn about family, world, reading/writing again etc. i know that don't count for nothing. sorry to the poor mod who has to move this and tell me off.

[I_WMD]

Roz >> It is a place that is most times never filled >> let Me stay about >>..

[RozG]

((((((((((((corky))))))))))))

i know you care about me and i care about you too but...you gotta be patient....you know how i feel bout men hearing me cry? can't go there, it's weak. just know i am still here just hiding in the shadows of shame haha

[HALLIEBETH87]

*hugs*

[DocClyde]

(((Roz)))

[(JD)]

((((Roz))) because someone violates you does not make you less than a person! Don't take what they determined about you to be truth, for it is not so. You are a whole person even in all the parts, and you're special. Heal at your own pace, and feel better about who you are.

[I_WMD]

Well I sure hope if as the time happens >> and We hold hands >> I will >> SURE as heck cry ,, and It will not be >> to me >> Weak ... It will be ,, a hole that is so scared and empty ... that The healing will bring tears to my eyes Roz .

So ,, at that moment I will not take pics >> gotta keep rep intact >.

And I would be sorely amiss if I did not Also Thank that Cool young one that also >> I had to be careful of letting get to much of my pain on them >>. Then found she was awesome .. and for so young .. so able to help and let me vent .

You know who I mean Roz , Your Friend too ... Selfy .
I wish I actually could make words find a way to describe the ........ Ya see ,, I not even able to say Thank You >> for I feel that does not suffice the way I really feel .

But Thank You Roz >> and I will let Selfy know to look here >> Maybe she can help ya to know >> Crying is not weakness >> only an outward sign of emotion that has been bottled up . >.

[RozG]

((((((((halliebeth))))))))

[RozG]

(((((((Clyde))))))

[RozG]

((((((((Sky)))))))

i was talking about being left with amnesia after an attack when i was 11 yrs old.

it took 16 years for little bits of memory to start coming back and i still only have little bits....and i also have ongoing memory problems coz head damage was done.

that means when i see my kids for contact day i have to be told which is which...when my sis comes to visit she has to tell me it's her....

that is what i am grieving for....that all of that can never be changed beyond a point coz head damage is head damage ya know?

TY SO MUCH for your kind words though, it does help the healing (and acceptance of what can or cannot get better for me) much easier ty.

[selfy]

rozzy, you know im always around for yah to talk to? im happy to be there for you always just like i would be for corky. your a good friend to corky and i think your great for being good to him. hes a good guy too. hes helped me out hella lots and hes taught me alot too (just ask the GCSE exainers) im sorry that u have difficult with memory. i know its nothing similar but i struggle to remember what i did 15 mins ago sometimes. having head damage is hard i can imagine, and ill always be around to help.

corky yor incredibly sweet to say those things, thankyou. i love both of you loads. dont forget it, so ill always be around to help out and let u vent.

big huggies

love yall

[RozG]

((((((((((((selfy)))))))))))))

Thank You for being a wicked friend to me and corky both.

It's good to know you are always there for us both.

And i may vent to you bout my head damage some day lol, that is one i tend to keep bottled up.

You're a totally amazing person ((selfy)) ty.

Much love & hugs

[nothemama8]

hope you feel we are your friend also

[RozG]

((((((((Angie))))))))

[nothemama8]

Roz , if this helps, we have a space of time lost also, the terror of what happened was erased from our mind, pdoc says in time we may remember, but for now it's gone, really hoping we don't remember cuz what I can remember from that time is horrid
your not alone
Angie

[RozG]

(((Angie))) i'm sorry you have a space of lost time but ... harsh as it sounds ... it IS better to remember no matter how painful as that is the ONLY way to start healing proper.

my sadness comes from...some of my amnesia is psychological but some is also from brain damage as a child from abuse.

that angers me also coz no-one...even a parent... has the right to rob a child of themselves like that.

do you ...or anybody here... know how scarey and %#@&#! it is as an 11 year old having to be TAUGHT your name, age, address.. having to be taught to read, write, count all over again...and now having to be introduced to my OWN kids when i see them???

sorry if this seems angry but...nvm ...don't wanna get into trouble for venting how much all this %#@&#! really hurts and angers me!!!!!!

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and as a p.s. to no-one in particular but me....out of hurt not anger...

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