[zoeo99]

I am zoeo99. I lost my husband/friend/partner/lover in March of this year. He was born sick and always knew he would not live to be old. He was 36. I'm a bit older. I always knew it would end this way, and have lost many ppl in my life. I was NOT prepared for how awful this loss is, how deep and abiding my sorrow. I wish I had someone who could hold me while I just sob and sob. However, He was that person in my life. Even in a houseful of ppl, I feel so alone sometimes. His passing also brought financial issues with it, and the stress has caused a lot of stomach upset. I am depressed, even though on an anti-depressant. I need a place to come to express myself.
Thanks for "listening"
zoeo99

I am so sorry, Zoe. I recently lost the closet person to me, as well. The pain can be almost intolerable at times. I know that you feel alone in a house full of people, but at least you do have people around. I know that sometimes I want to grieve privately, but at other times it is good to have other people around. I'm glad that your depression is being monitored. My stress/grief has seriously affected my stomach as well.

Please take care.

[zoeo99]

Your stomach? Really? It's weird, my stomach has been cast-iron my whole life, but now, during the day, after I eat, I need to drink a soda to settle it. However, I can eat all I want at night, frequently do too. Not a good thing.
I'm seeing my doc in the morning, just to check in, I guess.
Thank you for taking the time to respond to me. I am sorry that you have suffered this loss too. Its so awful, isn't it?
Please tell me about your loved one, if its not asking too much.
zoeo99