crying each day

each day, there is a certain I just let my emotions out...sometimes more than once. I know there are a lot of htings bothering me...but some of them I'm not sure how to fix. I cry because I realise the only friend I have is my bf and the only friend I feel safe with is a guy who actually wants more than a friendship. I don't want to be in a romantic relationship with him...but he's the only person other than my bf...who accepts me for who I am...and actually wants to spend time with me...i find it so difficult to make friends...even with my parents...i am not close to them...I don't think my parents love me for who I am...my brother won't talk to me because his fiance hates me because i would not be her drinking buddy when i was living with him...she tried to control me so i would be like her...she didn't accept me for who I am...she was the one who invited me to come stay with them...my sister lives in kelowna and is 20 years older than me...we're not that close at all...I just want someone to care and give a crap about me...I got made fun of in highschool...and it comes back to me every single day and it embarrasses me...I was looking for comfort...and this teacher just completely humiliated me...I'm not sure if i will ever get over it...some days I don't know what the point is...I've just become lost...no aunts or unccles to be there for me...no grandparents...no family friends...just me, by myself...because everyone is too selfish to even care about me...I try each day just to make my own life...but I can't do it all on my own

oasis ,,, I be a couple years up there ... LOL .
But as far as ,, peeps that I really know well and would call * Friend * ?

We go Long lengths of time in our lives ,, and that one that always be there ,, is that One we Love ,,>>>>>.....and ,,,???,,, I have to Love me ,, and give that freely .

all else comes in time ... Sorry that the relatives are no more , and the Family ,, is a drift in their own worlds .

WMD.