So yeah, I'm not looking forward to tomorrow. It'll be the one year anniversary of one of our beloved classmates committing suicide. It doesn't affect me much- I don't feel grief, but I don't know how the other kids at school are going to react. I still remember what a miserable day it was nearly one year ago. I heard a few whispers about the date coming up on Friday... but I wonder if it will be a normal day...? People have moved on since then, but I wonder if tomorrow they will continue to move on or if they will stop and think for at least one day what they had lost 366 days ago. I can see it going either way really.

You know, in the back of my head I'm hoping people are upset so that the day will be easier, it's a lot easier for me to deal with a day where everyone is sad and the only thing I have to stress over is my inability to cheer people up in these situations then to deal with a normal school day where you are being bombarded with work and stressors and stimuli. It sound so messed up, I know. Just to give you a hint of how emotionally detached I am from this situation. I'd understand if you hate me based upon the above statement.

[Sad In TX]

How do you really feel about it? I can't help but think that you feel something like maybe a little grief, but maybe not enough to cry...
I hope your day goes ok, and you make it through. It is hard to move on with this kind of thing, and I imagine the day will be a little somber, or it could be like it never happened. You never know.
But don't worry about having to cheer someone up unless you want to. If your heart isn't in it, don't do it.

Well, I got my answer today. It was a completely normal day. Apparently they are holding some sort of memorial service though, which I think some kids are going to go to. That's the only reason why I went to school today- to see if anyone reacted visibly. (I was sick all day with either allergies or some kind of sinus infection)

And you're wrong, I don't feel any grief. Period. I feel sad when everyone else is bereaved, and I want to take their pain away. but I myself do not feel any sort of emotion attached to things like this. I have, and will most likely continue to treat people dying as something insignificant. I'll pause for a moment, think for a moment, and then live on like nothing happened. It's the way I am.

[I_WMD]

Kaika ,,Glad your * answer * came soon in regards to your classmates way to get together and do something .

BTW ,,,, LOL . I not be " stalking " You .
anyways ......

I miss the lil' crazy kitty siggy ,, hehe . ,,,

I'll pause for a moment, think for a moment, and then live on like nothing happened. It's the way I am.


wish you could bottle that .

WMD.

Yeah, I'd make millions, right?
(PS, my "crazy kitty" signature is saved as my sig pic so I can change it back and forth whenever I want, you'll see them again when I'm bored with this one lol)

[I_WMD]

.Yeah, I'd make millions, right?

That ,, or a very short infomercial ,,,,

" How's your dad Jack ?" ....Died .......How's yours' Dan ?" ....Same ......

WoW !!! So you bought some of that kaika kat in a bottle too !!?
You Could Tell ???

Of course ,, and By the way ,, I called in the last 15 minutes and got a life time supply for the same Very Low Price [ plus shipping & handleing ].





.WMD.
LOL.