Tomorrow is the day,,, per "protcol" I've had heart stress CT and caterzation, sinus CT, and lung CT - all so they can find why I can't get oxygen into my lungs. Scarring from repeated infections basically is the answer that the scans show.

The ENT specialist did a phsyc. exam on me - it was humilating. I bring out the absolute worse in MD's. I truly, truly hate myself......

Any clues on how I can get doctors to focus on my PHYSCIAL problems instead of my MENTAL health.

ENT doctor wrote " patient cycled rapidly thru depression and giddiness" - all in 10 minutes.

So GRRRRR. I was tired out- hence depressed, he said something funny and I laughed..hence the "giddiness".

So instead of telling me how to prevent infections and whether that is cause of my high CRP inflamation test, he wrote "she is disappointed that I didn't recommend surgery for her large sinus cyst." WHAT I WAS QUESTIONING was "are you absolutely sure that it is a cyst and not a tumor."

I debate every time I go to specialist whether I should put all my medications down - that seems to be a real thing with them.

I just don't know "what is it that I do in particular" to bring this out in them...Tell me ....do I hold my head differently or have a tattoo on my forehead that says " mental illness"?

None of the doctors seem to be able to track down why my CRP test is 27-33 instead of less that 5. Has anyone ever had problems like that?

Thanks for listening - I'm just really uptight about tomorrow.

[(JD)]

What does your allergist suggest? I don't know your psychological dx, but I do know that allergies can cause most all of what you are talking about.

Please don't be offended by the closeness of body and mind You just cannot really separate their functionings, imo. My stress is so affecting my physical life, and vice versa. I must treat it all together, or I would never catch up with myself.

Take care.

My diagnosis - severe depression, binge disorder formerly bulemia, anxiety, phobias, and the jury is out - some think bipolar.I was physically abused, neglected and was in the hands of a pedophile for 3 years. At 18, I married a person that battered me every day - tried to kill me 3 times and raped me. I stayed married for 12 years.
When I was 19, I was ill with kidney, bladder infections for a year or so - Went to 7 gp, specialists - all they
focused on was my depression. When I collapsed and they did ER surgery. They found a cantalope size tumor - it had damaged my bladder, ovaries and tubes, appendix etc. My family didn't support me with this "near" death experience nor any of the many follow-up surgeries.

For ME, depression has lost me the ability for my DR to look at me objectively. It has made me an outcast in the world that I live in because I cannot seem to conform. There seems to be a magic formula for living and I don't have it. I moved out of my home town because I wanted my sister to have the life that she wanted, She was deeply embrassed to have a sister such as me.

I had asked my GP to send me to an allergist - she sent me to a ENT.
I'm sorry, I'm venting - just frustrated. My best friend was to take me tomorrow but she whimped out. Not the first time. Going thru these procedures, having to take taxies all the time when I'm drugged up makes me uncomfortable - it disorientates me.