[Blue93]

Well there is no easy way to start this off.. so i'll just start to ramble i guess.

Some of my abusers sometimes make me take something.. a drugs, med I don't know what it is.
The only thing i know is that it either makes me pass out or at least not remember up until a couple of hours after taking it, or make me go limb, like i cant walk nor really move anything.

Well like I said i dont know what it is they make me take.. they don't tell me and i wont ask..
Normally I might get a headache or maybe an upset feeling stomach from it but the next day I would be fine again.

However this time it made me sick. I had to take one this tuesday morning.. it is now saturday night.
I've been throwing up ever since and I think up until thursday or friday I had a fever too. I'm not as sick anymore as at first.

But my question is, at what point do I start to worry?
I'm hoping it will just get better though and I can pretend it was just a stomachflu or something..

Thanks.

Blue

[nothemama8]

are you able to get to an Emergancy Room?
can you make phone calls?
tell your T or pdoc immediatly

[Blue93]

i dont want to have to tell anyone if its not going to be necesarry. its getting better after al

[nowheretorun]

have you told your current caretakers blue? ... i think its hard for us to know the answer, but we want to help...

[Blue93]

no i havent. Well they know i'm sick obviously but they dont know why.
Its ok if no one can really answer.
I was just wondering for some overall advice.. i guess.
Like after how many days should do you start worrying... or something. I dont know.

Blue

[nowheretorun]

well, for me, anytime im sick i start to think about how and how soon i can get well, what caused it, etc... so you're fine to ask about it... we really do care and wonder how you're getting along... im glad you're still coming here...

you should bring it up with your caregivers Blue... i know trust is hard because of what you've been through, so i wont pressure you more... just think about it..

if you're feeling better, then thats the point.. i pray there will not be a next time that it happens to you..

thank you for having faith in us Blue...

[bebop]

I am so sorry you are going thru this. is there any way for you to stay away from these people that are doing this?

[ECHOES]

It sounds like it is time for you to ask.

[blah__x]

hey blue personally i think you should get it checked out because it may be doing damage that you can't see...

[Blue93]

yeah maybe... id have to explain whats going on then though... i dont think i can do that.
So considering im getting a bit better every day im going to leave it be for now

[Blue93]

Went to docter today.. Fosters made me go.
Well of course it was a big waste of time, all he said was that it was maybe from all of the stress I've been trough lately (if only he knew how) and to just stay home this week and go back next week.
He asked me stuff about what i've been eating and how I've been sleeping and about school and my brother.
Also took some blood, just to reassure them (fosters) he said. I'm sure it wont be showing anything though so I guess I got of easy.

Blue