Roll Call

So an update on me... Dysphoria starting to climb, I'm feeling a bit... Off... From playing too much Five nights at Freddy's. And I saw a movie today! My little pony Equestria girls: rainbow rocks! Because I'm a brony, and some of my VA coaches voiced some of the characters!

I did art...

I really think I'm starting to get better, I actually feel proud of myself for drawing this.
A Changelings love by Doppelrac on deviantART
It's both of my original characters, each of them are baced on my 2 personalities. Shade is the girl on the left, (the side that id really like to be) is loveing, caring, but likes to get into a bit of mischief from time to time. Then there's DOPPELRAC, the guy on the right. Hes basically who I am physically. He's awesome, loyal, protective, and mainly CRAZY AND INSANE!

Hey everyone. Sorry it's been a while since I've come on here. I do read each post that comes through.

I'm frustrated because I have no idea how I'm going to afford hrt. I have the script for it right in front of me and no idea if I'll be able to act on it... It's been a long time waiting for this moment only to have yet another setback.

seraphic, I think it's normal to be nervous about the changes happening. There's a lot going on when we start hrt and it's different the way things happen for everyone. Gotta say, jealous of the chin hairs!

theinvisigoth, a lot of people don't get how hard this is for us. We all are different people and are going to do things differently and, much to their surprise, we are different from their preconceived stereotypical notions!! :/ Sorry you're having to go through that. Are they at least more or less accepting?

doppling, sounds like you're having a lot of fun with that game! That's awesome. I think I would be too creeped out to give it a go And you got some talent with drawing there! Nicely done!

kraken, Congrats on coming out to a few people! I hope you're able to find a good counselor to help the two of you out. I'm sorry about your dysphoria I hope the gym helps. I've just joined a gym, myself. I don't put on muscle very well but it'll be a start anyway.

So I'm being kicked out of my house... What fun.......... I have a few days to pack while legal stuff get sorted out.... But still. I'm probably gonna be moving in with my dad, I may need to keep my T stadus hidden even more, but at least il have more freedom to go out and do whatever...
Anyways, because of the above... I'm probably not going to be online much... So if your wondering where I am (let's face it... You won't) il be trying to figuring **** out.

Adespota, I'm so sorry about your difficulties getting to hrt. This sucks. I hope you can find a way of resolving this. Hang on in there, ok?

Doppeling - of course we would have wondered where you had gone I hope things work out with your dad!

@adespota: she is just, feeling self conscious and comments like that get to me I guess. I'm sorry to hear you're having trouble with hrt. Every part of this process is so expensive, it's scary sometimes.

This week I do have good news, my name and gender change process is almost done, I just have to wait another few days for the paperwork to get approved.

Well yeah! I think comments like that would get to anyone. Hopefully she'll come around. Sometimes people just are not informed very well or take longer to adjust.
And wow!!! That's really exciting!!! Congrats on the name and gender marker change!! That's really great news! I'm genuinely happy for you!

I also have good news. I start HRT this Monday!! Had to sell all of my Gameboy stuff (which was quite a bit to be honest) but I'm there now! I honestly have no idea how I got here. It's been so long waiting for this. I knew I wanted to medically transition since 19 years ago. Yep. I'm definitely ready for this.

So happy for you, Adespota! This is so exciting!

Hubby and I will have the first couples counseling session tomorrow. I'm pretty scared. I'm not sure about the therapist, but basically this is just the "getting to know him" session. We have another appointment with another therapist in two weeks. But tomorrow will be the first time we have to talk about the "t bomb" since I came out to him.

Meanwhile, my therapist and I are beginning to look into my relationship with my mother. I think he wants to make sure that my identifying as male isn't some sort of "omg I don't want to become like her" thing taken to the extreme. Lol. Now wouldn't that be something?

Yea-a-a-a-a... Adespota hrt

Pretty low this evening... I'm going over to YouTube to watch some tranny vid's. That'll help...

Quite a day for me... It was the day I was suppose to be kicked out... But it's been delayed.

But this will be my last week I'm sure of it.

Skeezyks and Doppeling I'm really sorry you're both having such a hard time right now. I feel bad for both of you.

Hi all. c: I don't like to talk abt it much but I am 2.5 yrs ft, mostly trying to forget the past and stop judging myself tbh. So anyway just wanted to lend my support and warm fuzzies. I hope everyone is staying strong!

Hi dark sweetie!! Great to have you here I know what you mean about judging ourselves. Seems like a lot of other people do, so it's easy to do that to ourselves. We're in this together though!

Just thought I'd do a little update. So I got my first shot on Monday and it's a pretty low dose. Had no idea what might happen or not happen. All my life I've been a light eater, rarely getting hungry. Oh my goodness. I could eat the empire state building. Might be hard to chew though... Also, just 10 hours after my shot my voice started to fail me every here and there. Then the day after, all was normal so I thought, okay maybe it was nothing. Well today my throat has been scratchy and my voice sounds like I have a cold. I'm otherwise feeling fine though, soooo. Take from that what you will. I'll leave it at that for now. PEACE

Thank you Adeposta and congratulations I hope on your voice!!

Adespota, so happy you were able to take this step! YOU'RE ON T!!

Well peeps, today was the day... Today I was kicked out of the house... I have all my stuff (excluding my computer) and I'm now moved in with my dad. Now I'm gonna half to hide my transness harder than I already do... There are down perks to living with him, but I have a lot more freedom now...

Anyways, In other news: I have a girlfriend now Who knows my secret and supports it ^_^

Have a good day y'all! Just know it's probably gonna be better than mine!

Doppeling, that's awful I'm sorry you're going through that. I hope you can work out a stable living situation where you can be open soon.

Congrats on the relationship though! Focus on the positive...

doppeling, sorry that happened now. But I agree - focus on the positive. This is awesome about you having a girlfriend who is supportive <3

Dang. I'm struggling today… I'm so scared of what my future will bring. :'(

So I had thanks giving... Because canada... And I really hate family... I'm always getting comments like "what a handsome young man" or... Other comments referring that... I know they mean well and that they don't know about my secrets, but it just skyrocketed my disphorya.

Thank you everyone! Ends up I really just got a cold so >.> on antibiotics for an ear infection now to top it off. Lots of fun. Maybe my voice is still dropping and it's just been a 2-fold thing, who knows.

Doppeling you've been having a pretty rough time. This is hard. I get strongly gendered comments too when family is around like I'm my dog's "mommy" *gag*. But they don't know any better. It makes my dysphoria go up a lot too. I'm also in Canada so will be having family over today for Thanksgiving. I might be off the hook a bit though since I'm pretty sick. A blessing in disguise perhaps? Hard to say. Hang in there!

Good morning ladies gentlemen and non-binary friends.
Today I am off to college after another week of being unable to focus on my assignments. I have sent an email off to my boss this morning to try and get a Wednesday off next month as a local women's health centre wants to have discussions on setting up a transwomen inclusive policy. Next week I also am meeting another transwoman and transman to discuss how we can educated people on transgender issues.

Sheesh, so when did my life turn from bad to nightmare? The situation at home has taken another turn for the worse and my husband is giving me the silent treatment more or less. I can't handle it
I'm traveling for the rest of the week, so at least I'm getting a break.

Hi Kraken sorry to hear you are having such a hard time. Travelling is good to have a break but in that travelling take out some time for yourself so you don't just dwell on the situation.