Roll Call

Thank you, spotheshark (and yay for marine user names )

I'm traveling for business, so at least I'll be busy.

So yesterday I visited a support group... It's was so welcoming and friendly ^_^

I went to a support group yesterday. The wife of an elderly trans lady asked me which way I was transitioning, ftm or mtf. Lol.

Yah, it's hard to tell sometimes, I feel like I need to change my speech pattern just so I don't end up saying the him or her pronouns in the wrong way

Anyways, I had a productive day... I got a few more things for my Halloween cosplay, I submitted a few auditions for some internet voice acting projects, and trolled more scrubs with a "she's a dude voice troll" XD

Hi…I can't believe I haven't posted in here yet…

Anyway, I have no idea what label is appropriate, whether bigender/two spirit, genderqueer, non-binary, etc. etc. All I know is that I have the body of a female but I'm not female, nor am I male or transgender. I'm both and neither. The people who are important to me know about it and accept it…others don't really. They probably suspect I'm different but don't quite know in what way. Anyone I've talked to about my gender hasn't been surprised at all and sort of already expected it. I'm just afraid of how it's going to affect my life/relationships.

I feel on the fence about pronouns and if I'd rather go by a gender neutral/more masculine name. It's such a hassle to change all of that and will it actually make me feel better in the end?

so i finished my Foxy cosplay for halloween, AND OH MY GOD FIVE NIGHTS AT FREDDY'S 2 TRAILER CAME OUT!!!

IM EXCITED FOR IT!!!

Hard to say without trying it out. Are there people in your life who are open and willing to try this with you? If not, you could always try a free online game and getting into a social setting there and try things out there. It might be harder with neutral pronouns unless it's a more mature/open community but you could probably try male pronouns there at least. Just throwing that idea out there, do with it what you will I look forward to the day when people realize they don't need to understand everything about a person in order to respect who they are, including their gender and pronouns. Ah well, one day I hope!

Btw just wanted to say sorry I'e been quiet for a while. Been sick as a dog, found mold in my bedroom which is where my computer is, and so on.

i had a fun time at the PNE's Fright Night with my NOW GIRLFRIEND!!!

lol yah, we went in as friends and came out more than ^_^

(as for my last one... she felt that things where going too fast...(am i turning into a player??) lol)

The Skeezyks is ill...

Hope things are going well Doppeling!
And feel better soon Skeezyks!

Feel better Skeezyks!

Been some time since I last posted, anyways... Went on a movie date with my GF, and it was almost perfect!

Winter is bringing its rain and coolness and it's making my skin dry.

And I had to move rooms... It's a bit more warm at least... And a bit more room with shelves.
Anyways, hope y'all are doing well

So my t very casually mentioned today that he once had another trans*patient. Say whaaaa?

Kraken: Oh... Well! So he knows ALL about it! Great!

Haha, well, no, he doesn't . I believe she was post-transition when she became his client -- so he doesn't know a lot about the entire process,and I'm not sure they discussed issues related to being transgender. Still -- I'M NOT THE ONLY ONE!

Hooray for that!

Not much to update right now. I wasn't expecting any voice changes so soon. I've only been on HRT for 6 weeks but on a 1/4 dose, so quite low. But I can't even speak at a Middle C without my voice going haywire now. But can speak fine in the lower registers, between D3 and A3 are the most comfortable for those who know what I am talking about XD I did a voice comparison and there's definitely a change.

I'm hoping and praying I have good news tomorrow

Ha, yay for the voice changes! Fingers crossed for the news!

One thing that always interests me is voice, being a voice actor with a high range, it's has its perks...

But to have your nutral voice change must be an interesting experience, one that I'm not sure I want to have. Good luck with it tho!!

Thanks Kraken and Doppeling! Yeah it's very strange, indeed. Just getting used to my changing voice. I speak more comfortably in a different place so it's weird getting used to it. I definitely am liking it though!!

So as for the news, looks like I don't have any right now. Maybe after the end of January I'll know for sure... hoping to get a surgery covered.

Oh my, this doesn't really belong here, but I dissociated so badly in today's session with my t. It was scary. T tried to bring me back, but it was super difficult. I'm still really shaken.

Just had to vent, apologies .

How's everyone else doing?

No need to apologize, Kraken! That does sound scary. Does that happen often?

No, it doesn't fortunately. At least not as badly. What scared me most was how powerless I felt.

Well, t said we will work on strategies to prevent this from happening.

And thank you

Not making any progress with my dysphoria, I'm just sort of in denial at the moment. I'm still OK