An advice, please!

Hi!

I need an advice or at least an opinion. Because I don't know who am I.

Before everything, I must say that I have GID. I'd talked with a lots of psychiatrists and psycholigists for help, but my country is very closed. Literally, one ofe them tried to exorcise me. I know, sounds crazy, but that stuff really affected me, because I entered with the resolution to "keep going, I'll gonna help ya", but that was false.

For my luck, my momma tries to exorcise me too. She says is open-mind, but can't with me. But, recently I found a psychiatrist who recommended to speak - in this case, write - about this.

I've feel happy with crossdressing and even trying to talk like opposite sex, but, because my surroundings and family, I'd live as my sex neutrally. I'm afraid to live a lie, or even to being neutral, but, I can not choose because my confusing and represive "home". Somehow, I can live as my gender, but I feel kinda "not great, just like everyone".

I'm hoping that soon I'll start my life solo, but I need advice or opinion respect my "little" problem. I feel vulnerable with this, but I really want a word or encouragement.

So, what's your opinion about this? What part of I is true?

You are who you are, and that part is what's true. As much as you'd like your mom's and community support, it is what it is for now. Since, you aren't independent of your family, being respectful of them isn't hiding, per se, just accepting them for themselves. Cultures that exorcise do expect a certain level of uniformity, je n'ai se quoi. I don't know, all the answers or how to navigate your predicament.
You're not alone. At least reaching out for support, will help you sort through this, and reach your own resolution.

Thanks for your words! I'm feel better with myself now. Really, thank you!

Number one should be your safety at all times. Respecting your household is important too. Once you can live independently, it may be easier to be yourself, but still you have a community to think about. If you have safe places where you can do your cross-dressing and be yourself, that would be good. Try to build a support network of friends or family members. It doesn't mean you have to tell them about your most private thoughts. But even if you find you can be a little more comfortable with certain people, it can really go a long way. And lastly, I think patience is often overlooked as being essential in becoming who you are and sharing it with the world. But always think of your safety.