[TheSquids]

Ok so I will try making this short.

Lately I've bean figuring out who I am gender wise, this is because on TV their making shows about transgender people. And this kicked my mind into high gear cause for some time now around 5 or more years back I've liked girl stuff "Makeup, Nail polish, even dolls and doll houses if I get the chance, and Etc."

So I went on the web and found all sorts of things including this forum for a while I thought I might be transgender, but later "Yesterday" I figured out "I'm a demigirl." But sadly I'm still not sure.

[TheSeamster]

I'm glad you've come across some good resources and have been able to explore your gender!

It's okay to not really know what your gender is! Sometimes you gotta try different pronouns and names, and just see what you feel most comfortable with! I cycled through a few gender identities until I found one that described me the best. And to be honest I'm still unsure sometimes. But that's gender! One big confusing spectrum of endless possibilities!

[TheSquids]

Originally Posted by TheSeamster

I'm glad you've come across some good resources and have been able to explore your gender!

It's okay to not really know what your gender is! Sometimes you gotta try different pronouns and names, and just see what you feel most comfortable with! I cycled through a few gender identities until I found one that described me the best. And to be honest I'm still unsure sometimes. But that's gender! One big confusing spectrum of endless possibilities!

Thank you so much .

[TheSquids]

Okay I am really questioning who I am gender wise I think I'm a demigirl my biological gender is male and I am going CRAZY with feeling AT HOME IN MY BODY AHHH .

[TheSquids]

HELP ME!!! AHHH

[Rand.]

Deep breath, TheSquids. This isn't something you figure out overnight. Frankly, labels don't mean much. They are just words with definitions to help describe our experiences. Which can feel incredibly important when we have felt for so long that our experience is something to be buried and hidden, when we are designed to be free and not shackled. We want to scream out to the world who we really are.
Having said that, learning about who we are is a life long journey. That's just how complex each of us is. Slowly I'm beginning to learn that it's better to just be than to grasp at figuring things out. My brain will never fully figure it all out. But I am still me. I don't have to figure out how I breathe or learn how to do it. Or for my heart to pump blood. It just does. You don't necessarily have to know what your label is in order to be yourself. Be yourself and eventually you'll see that maybe this fits or that. Maybe none do. It's all good. Just be you, things will make sense and unravel. Sometimes when a knot is so complicated you can't pick it apart, just gently rolling it mindlessly between your fingers will loosen things up. Take your time. As much as people like to think life is a race, it really is more of a journey

Btw I say all that but I definitely am not there yet lol. I'm in a somewhat poetic mood and it seems like something that might be helpful so I'll leave it instead of deleting it like I normally do lol.

[TheSquids]

Okay so hi it's me and I am really am questioning every thing about me so today I'm going to go past gender, so I want to be a girl yes, do I like boys no, do I like girls yes, what I'm saying is I want to be a girl and I love girls there I said this almost did not post this.

[TheSquids]

Well I'm very sure I'm transgender I have huge want to be a girl but what if others do not except this will I have to move that would break my heart and make me commit suicide 101%. I love my home and could never move I now a tomboy/transgender person from elementary school they are my friend but at that small school we where all nice, there was no bullies at that school NONE which is awesome. but how could I go transgender with out problems I am in middle school just before puberty AH. I maybe that gender won't be told to my high school I hope. Also I'm 12<age

My friend now uses boy restrooms, is referred to as he/his and is very happy I think though I wouldn't know I never see them that much.

[TheSquids]

Okay so Hi again I am posting a lot today because it is Saturday and I have been having lot's of gender dysphoria, and want to be female.

I just want to ask how hard is it to tell parents about being transgender. Also for any one who has this knowledge what happens if I use testosterone blockers and estrogen, what happens with my body and what are the risks.

Also please reply

I really need answer to the first question for now.

Also so this is a big of a rant but I have experienced one strange puberty like thing before in 5th grade, emotions where on havoc and cried a lot, but voice did not change can anyone relate to that?

[Rand.]

Hi TheSquids.

Telling your parents is usually pretty tough, but it depends a lot on you and your parents. A lot of people like to write a letter so that the person reading it can have some time to process the information. Other people prefer to say it in person. It can be scary, you're opening up to someone and that can make us feel vulnerable. But most of the time, you're gonna have to end up doing it sooner or later anyways!

That said, do you know how your parents feel about the LGBT community? That could give you a good idea on their reaction. If it's extremely negative and hostile, then maybe wait a bit though, okay? We want you to be safe.

As for hormone blockers, from everything I've read and heard, the only thing they do is delay puberty. There's been nothing to show this to be damaging in any way. You're young to transition, but puberty blockers give you and your parents time.

I don't know much about the MtF side of HRT so maybe someone else can help fill in on that. That probably won't be for a while, though, so there'll be time to look into that as well.

If you've been feeling depressed, emotional havoc and crying spells is pretty typical. And often it doesn't make any sense to the one experiencing it. If you're worried you could possibly see if you can talk to your doctor about it. Might not be a bad idea to bring up anyway

[TheSquids]

Originally Posted by Rand.

Hi TheSquids.

Telling your parents is usually pretty tough, but it depends a lot on you and your parents. A lot of people like to write a letter so that the person reading it can have some time to process the information. Other people prefer to say it in person. It can be scary, you're opening up to someone and that can make us feel vulnerable. But most of the time, you're gonna have to end up doing it sooner or later anyways!

That said, do you know how your parents feel about the LGBT community? That could give you a good idea on their reaction. If it's extremely negative and hostile, then maybe wait a bit though, okay? We want you to be safe.

As for hormone blockers, from everything I've read and heard, the only thing they do is delay puberty. There's been nothing to show this to be damaging in any way. You're young to transition, but puberty blockers give you and your parents time.

I don't know much about the MtF side of HRT so maybe someone else can help fill in on that. That probably won't be for a while, though, so there'll be time to look into that as well.

If you've been feeling depressed, emotional havoc and crying spells is pretty typical. And often it doesn't make any sense to the one experiencing it. If you're worried you could possibly see if you can talk to your doctor about it. Might not be a bad idea to bring up anyway

Thanks I just don't now how they feel my mom has asked me before if who I love and I just put up mental block and go dead silent but she seems fine with LGB but Not sure about Transgender, so so so hard, and what I want from Testosterone blockers is to make sure I do not go through male puberty, so I can transition later in life easier. And thanks for replying.