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When you say emotional attachment I believe this to be love I am not trying to justify my partner's actions - he has a personality disorder and all I am trying to do is to understand more about it - not to feel better about myself - what purpose would that have?
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Look at undergrounds threads - they have helped me understand a little of how it might feel to be NPD and I really don't judge but if you wish to believe that - it is your choice. There are people who have diabetes or heart disease or MS - they have traits and symptoms and I don't judge those either. Why would I be with someone with NPD if I judged him because of it - what you say about me doesn't make sense!
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BTW im still waiting to hear an inspiring story and not saying this in a narc way but I too enjoy the possibilities of hope!!!! |
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PD’s are “curable”.
Yes they are. Maybe not yet for all PD’s but it’s coming eventually I’m convinced. In order to keep on keeping on I did a lot of research to convince myself it WAS possible. Right now it’s not easy and the methods aren’t widely agreed on. I haven’t gone to the university library near me yet to see what’s being said in the academic literature, but my PDNOS is well on its way to being resolved. My therapist agrees. I have complained a lot about how there’s not much good therapy for PD’s and that I’ve had such a hard time finding help, despite being willing to acknowledge that something was “wrong” with me, and she comes back with the fact that most people with PD’s don’t think there is anything wrong with them. Yeah – because most people with PD’s have intransigent defense systems against pain and traumas, etc., that are unbearable. I had a “nervous breakdown” of my defensive pattern/PD about 12 years ago – it had failed me in some important respects over the previous 5 years. I had been relatively functional before then. Could my PD have gotten resolved without breaking down first? Probably not with most current therapies. About 6 - 8 years ago I was feeling like I was fighting against evil within myself. I wanted to go somewhere that I could act it out and get exorcised – flailing my arms and people holding me down and them not getting their feelings hurt or thinking that I was a horrible person because I was acting in a horrible way. Just letting it out, to get to know what it was. There was no such place to go. Turns out that image is a pretty close match for the original trauma that had been unbearable – I’m 66 and had my tonsils out when I was 3. They didn’t give you sedation back then and my mother was not allowed in when they wheeled me into the operating room. I can still “see” the metal instruments on the wall in this strange, sterile room and I started getting upset, then yelling and kicking and flailing my arms. The nurses held me down and put an ether mask over my face. I can still “see” that yellow/orange rubber mask. Finally, after 50 years of therapy, on and off, with the help of my trauma specialist therapist whom a FRIEND (NOT any of the other professionals) recommended, I’ve gotten re-connected with and processed most of the horrible feelings and emotions associated with that event. I’d suggest that PD’s are like “behavioral addictions” that we create for ourselves in childhood, before we have access to any chemical means of alleviating our distress. (This idea inspired by Heinz Kohut's distinction between "narcissistic personality disorders" and "narcissistic behavior disorders" which include addictions.) With that in mind, here’s a recent article: http://blogs.psychcentral.com/after-trauma/2014/01/why-the-connection-between-addiction-and-ptsd/ Until we can acknowledge our own pain (and that takes good trauma therapy and the recognition by the mental health profession that we need it), we will probably continue to act in ways that pain others sometimes. And make no mistake -- things may get really bad when we start being able to feel those feelings we numbed out. Kind of like the DT's? But one way I think SHOULD be able to work is if people are willing to acknowledge they have a PD and if other people in their life are willing to say "I felt hurt when you . . ." and if the person with the PD can stop the reflex defense reaction (e.g., "I don't care" or whatever) and hear the other person's perspective, then it seems to me things might eventually improve over time. But that's just me talking, don't know if there's any literature on that. Sound a little blow-hardy, doesn’t it? Sorry, I didn’t say that I was well YET. ![]() ![]() ![]() Last edited by here today; Jan 09, 2014 at 04:38 PM. Reason: addition |
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I do love them but it is a challenge for them all. I definitely do not have insight more than anyone else with NPD. The fact is I probably have less than most who really do the research on all levels. My insight is always my own, I never try to talk as if I am better although that's what I have been reprogrammed to do. To be honest I was once told that my ways shown right through by another who had NPD, when this happened I was extremely aggravated and then after reading it again and again I realized they were right. Everything I was saying was for myself, my image and what was to be perceived. I realize more then ever that I am not better than anyone else. Does this mean it applies always? Of course not!! I am still who I am just with a slight better understanding usually a while after I do something that is not acceptable by todays society. The difference is I never thought I did something wrong or inappropriate it was always ok. I am not saying that it is not possible for things to work out for you just not a high percentage. My wife challenges me to a level that nobody has ever done. This for me has made me change things around and it has always worked out. The fact is not only do I have NPD but I am also a little nuts so the mixture doesn't always work well. My wife does like to refer to me as a sociopath... LOL She has somethings going on as well and like I said before people with issues seem to stick together!!!
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