[InsanelyOk]

Possible trigger, just to be on the safe side.

I've been pulling my hair out since I was 11. I stopped about a year ago, but a few months back I started pulling again. My hair pretty much covers it, since it's on the back of my head, but if I was to put my hair up in a ponytail or push it to the side it would be noticiable. I'm so ashamed I let it get to this point.

Today was bad...sigh. I got the tweezers and started pulling out the hairs that were starting to grow back and I couldn't get by myself. There went all hope I had for it growing back. Just a few minutes ago I tried to pull some of the hairs I couldn't get a grasp on, which led to me picking my head so now it's going to form a sore. Just perfect...

I don't know why I can't stop again. What's wrong with me?! I can't do anything right! I never can... I just can't stand myself anymore.

I don't know why I'm like this...I don't mean to be. It's just something that happens-something I can't stop. I wish people were more accepting. I'm so afraid one of the few I actually care about will find out and not want me anymore.

Today just wasn't good for me, a lot of feelings building up. I suppose I just needed to vent a little, sorry.

[LostInFlames]

There is nothing wrong with you, don't be ashamed. Trich can be very upsetting and frustrating. You should be proud of the time you went without pulling any hair out, not upset that you finally did. I mean, it's reasonable to be angry or sad. Try not to blame yourself, or beat yourself up about it.

[RebbieDoll]

I know how frustrating it is to just not be able to stop. It is one of the worst feelings. One of the things I have learned is that the people that love you won't blame you for this--once you explain it to them and they understand, they will want to help you get through this. It's not a comfortable thing to share, but even telling one person you trust, and finding that they still accept you for you helps immensely. As difficult as it is, try to keep in mind that trich doesn't mean there is anything wrong with you as a person. It may take a long time, but you can find the strength to rewire that part of your brain that makes it such an overpowering need. I haven't gotten there either, but some day...In the meantime, just give yourself some love and blame the trich, not yourself!