[snapdragon928]

Would these be an example. Driving with my daughter on Christamas day, everything was fine, but I got a sudden thought that this was too perfect and right and we were going to get in a crash that would kill her. This was not at all helped when shortly after that she was steering with her elbow! Or her Knee! Told her several times hand on the wheels. Nothing bad happened, but I worry about her.
Next day I called my hubby to beg him to bring me knitting patterns, as I had yarn and needles but no pattern. He hung up on me. He was clearly mad at me when we were driving, I told him I didn't want to argue. Then panikcying that he was moving out on me.
Both got me thinking of those pills I have, if such a thing should happen. Surprisingly large sections of normal now that cellexa has been increased, but quick sharp downs. Doesn't go past the thought phase though, so no plans. But It' disturbing.

I've only had one incident of intrusive thoughts but these sound intrusive to me. Mine were mainly about hurting other people or myself although I absolutely did not want to I was afraid I would and got horrible images and urges.

Hello there,

I too have struggled with intrusive thoughts in the past. For me, they were mainly about me being afraid of hurting other people, or myself. They were so awful and time consuming, they caused 4 hospitalizations in two years. What really helped me was therapy (CBT and ERP). Exposure response prevention is basically about exposing yourself to your intrusive thoughts, no matter how uncomfortable they make you feel. And the more you expose yourself to these thoughts, the less uncomfortable they will become. And the wonderful part is when these intrusive thoughts become boring, and they stop bothering you! I did a lot of meditation where I'd either be alone, or with my therapist...and I'd just think about my intrusive thoughts until they became boring to me. Scary, but very effective.

It has now been about a year since I've struggled with these intrusive thoughts. They are awful to have, and a lot of hard work to get rid of, but it's possible. I hope you're seeing a therapist, or are considering seeing one. They are very wonderful to have when trying to learn to deal with intrusive thoughts.

If you have any questions or just want to talk, feel free to send me a pm.

[snapdragon928]

Yea, I am not worried about hurting others, but afraid to mention the fear about harm coming to people I love because then maybe it will come true. Most of my worries are about losing loved ones, or them being harmed. Mostly my birth daughter and my second husband. I have 6 kids, who I worry about at apropriate times. But some times not. 4 are step and two are mine. They are all grown. One is moving to a new continent, but she already proved herself by moving to an Island in washington with nothing but the clothes on her back and a local friend. She found a job right away and did well for herself. I will worry when she moves, or I don't hear from her. But with my daughter, I worry constantly she is going to get hurt or killed. She lives in the city. She rides her bike at all hours. She is a beauty and artistic and a kind soul. She is something special in my life that I don't want taken away.
Then a constant worry that hubby will die, If I don't hear from him, or if he's late or whatever comes up in my screwed up head it's because he's dead.
No therepists at this time, have to look into CMH.
I have also given everyone in the imediate family-hubby and kids- specific instructions for what to do if I should die, and I already have it planned in my head at least what to do and who to call should hubby die.
My family laughs and says I am morbid. Wish I didn't have these thought's pop up.
Used to be constant worry my hubby was going to leave me, for no apparent reason, constant until I started on meds. And intrusive thoughts on morbid things.

[vertebrae]

snapdragon928 ...

Below is a link to an article on the British website "Daily Mail UK" entitled "How to tame the monsters in your mind - Experts call them ANTS (Automatic Negative Thoughts) and unless you learn how to stop them, they'll ruin your life."

h t t p : / / w w w . dailymail . co . uk/femail/article-1341787/How-tame-monsters-mind-Experts-ANTS--Automatic-Negative-Thoughts-unless-learn-stop-theyll-ruin-life . html

(Remove the added spaces between some of the characters in the link above and then copy and paste it into your Internet browser ... I had to post the link this way as I am not able to do so since I am a new member to the forums here.)

Hope that this article is of some help to you.

Best wishes,

vertebrae