Tonight I can't stop the intrusive thoughts to hurt my dog. They feel so bad. I just keep having images of me beating her. Of hurting her in unthinkable ways. Of pulling her across the carpet by her ears. they make me so sick. I can't make them stop. I just want to die.

[twistedsister]

Perhaps you should go for a long run. Clear your head some. Give your dog to someone who could care for it. seems like you have too much time on your hands. since I prefer animals over most people, I haven't ever had your thoughts. But I am sure someone on here can perahps give you better info.

Originally Posted by twistedsister

Perhaps you should go for a long run. Clear your head some. Give your dog to someone who could care for it. seems like you have too much time on your hands. since I prefer animals over most people, I haven't ever had your thoughts. But I am sure someone on here can perahps give you better info.

I prefer animals over people too. I think that's why. Usually my obsessive thoughts have to do with things I don't want to think about. That are so horrible and not okay in my set of morals, that they just keep lapsing over and over again. Trying to stop them, only makes it worse. I hope I'm explaining this right. It's how obsessive thoughts sort of run. I know they can be difficult to understand if you don't have them. Or if you do, and don't understand them in yourself.

But anyway I went out to talk to my neighbor and she told me how much she knows I love my dog, and it helped to hear that, and that put a barrier between the thoughts and me. It helped to hear that I loved her and that I wouldn't hurt her.

[dragonfly2]

(((LydiaB))) The fact that the thoughts upset you tells me how much you love your dog. I had Postpartum OCD and had the types of intrusive thoughts that you do, only they were directed toward my baby. Awful, awful things. And nobody explained it to me.

I used to try to let the thoughts float through my mind, or sometimes tried to step back from them a bit and sort of think "oh, well that was different..." . But then there were days that I thought I had to be an absolute monster.

You do love your dog. Hang on to that and know that the thoughts are not you.

[Maven]

Remember, thinking bad thoughts isn't the same as having the URGE to do them. I used to have similar thoughts, but I realized I could never harm my pets, so I stopped worrying about it, and those kinds of thoughts rarely happen anymore.

thanks dragonfly. And I LOVE your signature with the polar bear. It makes me smile.

Maven- I'm glad you stepped past yours.

[2sweeties]

I understand how you feel. I have experienced similar thoughts to you, and it's crazy because they are aimed at those who you love with your whole heart and who you would NEVER want to harm. I completely understand your anxiety, but I can tell that you adore your dog and will never hurt her, ever.