Stories about my infidelity thoughts. Someone please answer.

I have written stories that are like my thoughts. They are based on the thoughts that I have. They may be a little intense and will give you insight on what I go through. I even avoid watching some tv shows or movies because they could trigger my thoughts. This is where phobia comes in.

-A man's wife sleeps with everyone. The reason being is either she likes sex or that her husband
is never home so she looks for sex elsewhere. She sleeps with whatever male is available,
whether it is a neighbor, a friend, or a bus driver. The husband finds out and is enraged so he
kills her. He stabs her 20 times. Her body is found. He confesses to killing her. He gets 20
years to life for murdering his beloved wife, who he believes would never betray him. He worked
hard to support her which was why he was never around. he had to go to other places to support
her. Missing her husband and needing the attention of another man, she looked elsewhere. She
slept with over 25 men.

- A couple has been married for over 16 years. Teh wife has had numerous affairs including a
number of men shown on a sex tape that her husband finds out about. She cheated on him early
in the marriage and finds out two of their children are not his. He decides to divorce her yet she
has been faithful for most of their marriage. His resentment of her builds because he has lost
trust and over time respect for her because of his wife's past betrayal.

-A couple grew apart. The wife has had numerous indiscreet affairs. She has had over 44 affairs.
The husband knows of these affairs and drinks himself in his sorrows. The husband plots to later
have her killed even when she discovers that she is pregnant. The plan does not come to fruition.
The couple later divorce on the gorunds of adultery and irreconcilable differences.

-A woman has figuratively slept with everyone around her. Once her husband finds out, he
divorces her. She has cheated on him with over 86 men. She is known for her numerous sexual
indiscretions. She returns to town as she has had a string of bad luck. She and her ex-husband
hate one another. He is in love with another woman but because of what the ex-wife did, he has
difficulty trusting her. There is word that someone has tried to kill her, but the ex-husband is a
suspect, but he didn't do it.

A man finds out that his wife has indeed slept with half the town. The woman was a promiscuous
woman who was once pure in the marriage and before the marriage. They have been married for
20 years. Because of that purity, she has had an interest in sex that cost her her marriage. She
also takes advantage of her husband working long hours thus he is rarely home. She fails to see
that he is working to support her. She has since slept with over 57 men. Once the husband
found out, he divorces her. They live in a town of 25000 people.

-Great-great-great grandfather and great great grandmother lived in a house in Iowa. They have
5 children. The husband's kids, at least 2 of them may not be his, since his wife was a tramp.
She slept with over 33 men and she was a loose woman. She was bored and unhappy in her
marriage because over the years, she also worked, took care of the kids, and helped her
husband with the finances. But that left with no time in the bedroom. She also loves sex. So
there is a possiblity about the paternity of two of his five kids though the husband may suspect it,
he doesn't know for sure if she is cheating on him.

It is quite long, but I know the thoughts may be true or it may be exaggerated. Could this be OCD? Imagine having those thoughts in your head? I had thoughts like this for years now. I can manage them better but I still have a fear that something might trigger them. Could the numbers of men be exaggerated or are these thoughts based on reality?

I don't have intrusive thoughts so I can't offer a lot of insight but I do think these sound the way I would think that aspect of ocd would.

I'm sorry you are having such a difficult time. Unfortunately infidelity does exist but I think that these stories are exaggerations of reality. Distortions are common with anxiety and ocd is a form of anxiety so I think your brain could be distorting this.

Now out of my own curiosity I wonder where this come from and why it's this that is being distorted. Again I don't really know how obsessions work and I don't have any type of qualifications but I wonder. It seems that all of these thoughts point to a anxiety regarding women.

My phone won't open your profile so I'm not sure if your a girl or boy.
But if your a girl perhaps you lack trust in yourself. Do you worry that you won't be able to stay in a committed relationship
If your a boy or the first idea doesn't seem right, maybe you have seen some reason not to trust a woman in your life. I don't know, you don't have to answer here, I don't even know if ocd has the same way of developing as say my anxiety.

I just wanted you to know you've been heard. Is there anyone you feel comfortable in real life talking to? Your doctor? A counsellor/therapist?

Youre having a tough time with this & I sure hope you're in a position to work on the issue with a therapist. I couldn't tell your gender from your profile so am not sure whether you're the subject or object here, but whichever is the case I feel the depth of your concern. Either it's a new issue or you've been dealing with it elsewhere ... So few posts in over three yrs at PC!

Keep posting, fill us in a bit if you don't mind. Are you having problems in relationships? Trouble committing to relationships?

Glad you're here.

I'm not even in a relationship. That is the crazy thing about it. I have never cheated, nor have I ever been cheated on.

Can you tie these to anything IRL? Have you had relationships? Are the people aspects of people you've known, even if the plots are not ones you've lived?

Are you perhaps a natural writer, simply doing what a writer does? What about this bothers you so? Have you actually produced the fully-written manuscripts? Has it occurred to you to market them?

I'm trying to get a clue to this ... Sorry all I've got are questions....

I have written a few short stories and poems, and a cookbook or two. So I guess there is some natural writing there. One of my stories is about a woman who has boys and is/was cheating on her husband with another man who has a daughter. I understand your questions. I have to confess, I have never been in a meaningful, monogamous relationship, which makes the thoughts an even greater mystery.