[Calva]

Hello,

My name is Spencer and I had quite the night last night.

Well the last night I was out drinking with some friends and I was pretty drunk. I put my coat in the coat check and at the end of the night I was outside having a smoke. I felt like the bouncers knew I was too drunk to get back in which is where my coat was. I started looking through my wallet and I couldnt find the coat check stub (my coat is a 350 dollar coat that I like a lot). My friend came out for a smoke and I told him i was going across the street to go to the washroom. After I finished peeing I was a mess trying to think of how I was gonna get my coat. I felt like i needed to sit down and think it through so I went into the stall and sat on the toilet to figure it out. Then I started to think of all the possible ways I could get my coat back. I also thought about if I couldnt get my coat back and all the different situations that could happen if I go to get it and they wont give me it back because I dont have my stubb. After that I started to think about how I would respond in each situation for all the ways I could try and get my coat back or if they wouldnt give me my coat back. Im not sure how long I was in there for but it must have been a while because my buddy and the bouncer from the bar came to get me. After we got outside my friend looked in my wallet and found my coat check stub. I woke up this morning and read up on OCD for the first time. I realize that this is my normal behavior when I have a problem I need to confront(not the whole sitting in the bathroom stall but analyzing everything to the point where some of the situations get pretty ridiculous). I also realized that I never even attempted to get back into the bar or even to try and explain to the girl at the coat check that I had just misplaced my stubb. I always knew I over analyzed everything but I never thought of OCD because I dont sort things or wash my hands constantly which is what I knew OCD as. I was wondering if trying to think of all the different outcomes to a problem I have is kind of like the people who need to wash their hands all the time. I am unemployed and I dont have the money to go see a psychiatrist. Im also not sure if im just trying to find some sort of reason for acting the way I do. Any help is much appreciated. Also would you recommend me going to see a psychiatrist?

This doesn't happen only when I drink, I do it all the time when I am sober as well.

[-jimi-]

There is an illness called GAD. It basically is worrying and overthinking everything. Maybe you want to look into it.