So I'm still fairly new here. Just decided to post in here for the first time. I have had obsessive thoughts. Mostly sexual thoughts, well the sexual ones only started 6 weeks ago. I've always had OCD but has got much worse over the past two years... Depression and panic attacks too.... Which is down to the obsessive thoughts. Anyway been on meds for 5weeks and started with a CBT, still up and down at the moment. I just wanted to know if anyone has tried meditation? My therapist thinks its a good idea???

Also I'm a very open person and would be happy to chat about this illness. Friends are the best way to recovery : ))

[IndoOCD]

Originally Posted by Kirstybeth

So I'm still fairly new here. Just decided to post in here for the first time. I have had obsessive thoughts. Mostly sexual thoughts, well the sexual ones only started 6 weeks ago. I've always had OCD but has got much worse over the past two years... Depression and panic attacks too.... Which is down to the obsessive thoughts. Anyway been on meds for 5weeks and started with a CBT, still up and down at the moment. I just wanted to know if anyone has tried meditation? My therapist thinks its a good idea???

Also I'm a very open person and would be happy to chat about this illness. Friends are the best way to recovery : ))

Yes. I could relate to you..
As I have the same question on whether I am categorized as a sex addict or compulsive sexual behavior..? Or it is OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder) which is the source of my problem..? I'm confused of my condition right now.. Could anybody relate to my situation..? Here is my situation : I may get easily turned on or fantasize easily on sexual matters.. On the contrary, when I am thinking or doing my compulsive sexual behaviour, I could ignore my contamination thinking, Such as masturbating to porn on my laptop, Which lead me to feel guilty and remorsed.. It then turns into embarassement or shyness, and social anxiety. My social anxiety leads me to more miserable life as I could not engage in a healthy sexual relationship with the opposite sex / woman.. To further worsen it, as I mention before that I also suffer from OCD. Mainly contamination subject. And I find hard to function normally in society because I use up to much of my brain power to rationalize my OCD such as will I get sick if I don't wash my hands throughly before handling food.. / What if I grab a public door knob or touch elevator button with my bare hands, but unable to sanitize my hands right afterwards.. And what if I do it in front of many people, and they make fun of me / even think I'm a freak which makes me more embarrased.. I don't want to get too detailed about my rituals or obsessive thoughts as it would be too long for a brief description. In summary, I'm confused which one (Obsessive thought about contamination / my Compulsive Masturbation Behaviour is the main culprit.. Which mental health condition that better describes my situation..? What treatment is better for me.. PPlease anyone could relate to my condition right now.. As I'm too confused of it and I could not justify my action well and function normally.. I'm 27 right now but leaved jobless because of it. And it makes me depressed so much that for almost 7 months I almost completely locked myself up in my room trying to rationalize my obsessive thought and rumunating a lot about my past on how I often failed myself because of my unresolved condition.. It really leaves me with major depression.. I even think of suicide as the only option many times as I could not relate my problem in real life, not even with my close relatives like my parents or brothers.. That is why I feel so much of relief when I stumble upon this internet forum. I do really appreciate anyone who would relate to my problem, share, and possibly offer a solution or advices to this debilitating mental disease that has infected my mind for over 14 years since I was 13 years old. Thank You Very Much for your Kind Attention.. Am I categorized as a sex addict or compulsive sexual behavior..? Or it is OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder) which is the source of my problem..? I'm confused of my condition right now.. Could anybody relate to my situation..? Here is my situation : I may get easily turned on or fantasize easily on sexual matters.. On the contrary, when I am thinking or doing my compulsive sexual behaviour, I could ignore my contamination thinking, Such as masturbating to porn on my laptop, Which lead me to feel guilty and remorsed.. It then turns into embarassement or shyness, and social anxiety. My social anxiety leads me to more miserable life as I could not engage in a healthy sexual relationship with the opposite sex / woman.. To further worsen it, as I mention before that I also suffer from OCD. Mainly contamination subject. And I find hard to function normally in society because I use up to much of my brain power to rationalize my OCD such as will I get sick if I don't wash my hands throughly before handling food.. / What if I grab a public door knob or touch elevator button with my bare hands, but unable to sanitize my hands right afterwards.. And what if I do it in front of many people, and they make fun of me / even think I'm a freak which makes me more embarrased.. I don't want to get too detailed about my rituals or obsessive thoughts as it would be too long for a brief description. In summary, I'm confused which one (Obsessive thought about contamination / my Compulsive Masturbation Behaviour is the main culprit.. Which mental health condition that better describes my situation..? What treatment is better for me.. PPlease anyone could relate to my condition right now.. As I'm too confused of it and I could not justify my action well and function normally.. I'm 27 right now but leaved jobless because of it. And it makes me depressed so much that for almost 7 months I almost completely locked myself up in my room trying to rationalize my obsessive thought and rumunating a lot about my past on how I often failed myself because of my unresolved condition.. It really leaves me with major depression.. I even think of suicide as the only option many times as I could not relate my problem in real life, not even with my close relatives like my parents or brothers.. That is why I feel so much of relief when I stumble upon this internet forum. I do really appreciate anyone who would relate to my problem, share, and possibly offer a solution or advices to this debilitating mental disease that has infected my mind for over 14 years since I was 13 years old. Thank You Very Much for your Kind Attention..

Originally Posted by IndoOCD

Yes. I could relate to you..
As I have the same question on whether I am categorized as a sex addict or compulsive sexual behavior..? Or it is OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder) which is the source of my problem..? I'm confused of my condition right now.. Could anybody relate to my situation..? Here is my situation : I may get easily turned on or fantasize easily on sexual matters.. On the contrary, when I am thinking or doing my compulsive sexual behaviour, I could ignore my contamination thinking, Such as masturbating to porn on my laptop, Which lead me to feel guilty and remorsed.. It then turns into embarassement or shyness, and social anxiety. My social anxiety leads me to more miserable life as I could not engage in a healthy sexual relationship with the opposite sex / woman.. To further worsen it, as I mention before that I also suffer from OCD. Mainly contamination subject. And I find hard to function normally in society because I use up to much of my brain power to rationalize my OCD such as will I get sick if I don't wash my hands throughly before handling food.. / What if I grab a public door knob or touch elevator button with my bare hands, but unable to sanitize my hands right afterwards.. And what if I do it in front of many people, and they make fun of me / even think I'm a freak which makes me more embarrased.. I don't want to get too detailed about my rituals or obsessive thoughts as it would be too long for a brief description. In summary, I'm confused which one (Obsessive thought about contamination / my Compulsive Masturbation Behaviour is the main culprit.. Which mental health condition that better describes my situation..? What treatment is better for me.. PPlease anyone could relate to my condition right now.. As I'm too confused of it and I could not justify my action well and function normally.. I'm 27 right now but leaved jobless because of it. And it makes me depressed so much that for almost 7 months I almost completely locked myself up in my room trying to rationalize my obsessive thought and rumunating a lot about my past on how I often failed myself because of my unresolved condition.. It really leaves me with major depression.. I even think of suicide as the only option many times as I could not relate my problem in real life, not even with my close relatives like my parents or brothers.. That is why I feel so much of relief when I stumble upon this internet forum. I do really appreciate anyone who would relate to my problem, share, and possibly offer a solution or advices to this debilitating mental disease that has infected my mind for over 14 years since I was 13 years old. Thank You Very Much for your Kind Attention.. Am I categorized as a sex addict or compulsive sexual behavior..? Or it is OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder) which is the source of my problem..? I'm confused of my condition right now.. Could anybody relate to my situation..? Here is my situation : I may get easily turned on or fantasize easily on sexual matters.. On the contrary, when I am thinking or doing my compulsive sexual behaviour, I could ignore my contamination thinking, Such as masturbating to porn on my laptop, Which lead me to feel guilty and remorsed.. It then turns into embarassement or shyness, and social anxiety. My social anxiety leads me to more miserable life as I could not engage in a healthy sexual relationship with the opposite sex / woman.. To further worsen it, as I mention before that I also suffer from OCD. Mainly contamination subject. And I find hard to function normally in society because I use up to much of my brain power to rationalize my OCD such as will I get sick if I don't wash my hands throughly before handling food.. / What if I grab a public door knob or touch elevator button with my bare hands, but unable to sanitize my hands right afterwards.. And what if I do it in front of many people, and they make fun of me / even think I'm a freak which makes me more embarrased.. I don't want to get too detailed about my rituals or obsessive thoughts as it would be too long for a brief description. In summary, I'm confused which one (Obsessive thought about contamination / my Compulsive Masturbation Behaviour is the main culprit.. Which mental health condition that better describes my situation..? What treatment is better for me.. PPlease anyone could relate to my condition right now.. As I'm too confused of it and I could not justify my action well and function normally.. I'm 27 right now but leaved jobless because of it. And it makes me depressed so much that for almost 7 months I almost completely locked myself up in my room trying to rationalize my obsessive thought and rumunating a lot about my past on how I often failed myself because of my unresolved condition.. It really leaves me with major depression.. I even think of suicide as the only option many times as I could not relate my problem in real life, not even with my close relatives like my parents or brothers.. That is why I feel so much of relief when I stumble upon this internet forum. I do really appreciate anyone who would relate to my problem, share, and possibly offer a solution or advices to this debilitating mental disease that has infected my mind for over 14 years since I was 13 years old. Thank You Very Much for your Kind Attention..

Hi! Ok so my OCD isn't like yours, I don't get concerned about contamination or getting sick. I am tidy and clean my house alot (my friends call me a military type cleaner)- but this doesn't rule my life it's just the way I am. I also count objects, letters, windows, tiles on the floor etc more or less constantly because I see it as a break from bad thoughts. I like the number 11 and hate the number 9. So 11 and multiples of 11 mean I'll be fine and 9 means something bad will happen. The numbers almost predict my future (hard to explain) but OCD only makes sense to the individual.
I've done this forever. But like I said its got worse over the past 2 years. I've had obsessive thoughts about getting cancer, or thinking every illness or problem I have to do with my health is going to kill me. So I've had panic attacks and bad anxiety. But you see I didn't realise that this was part of OCD!
It was only about weeks ago that I got help, I was having a sexual though about my partner and instead of saying my partners name I said my SONS!- and because I have OCD I started to think I was a sicko, this lead to me thinking would I do that to a child? Could I? Am I evil? And so on. So I went to the doctors and she told me its all part of OCD. It was terrible every time I looked at a child a sexual thought would pop up! My therapist has made me understand its the anxeity that makes you scared and makes you believe this is happening to you when it isn't! So it's a hard life every day this happens. Ill get there. I'm not sure what you have. Because mine always starts from something small then I other think it. And I always need to have something to worry about.

[IchbinkeinTeufel]

I relate a lot, Anonymous. :|