Intrusive thoughts of paper cuts?

I'm not sure if these thoughts are due to my OCD, I haven't really gotten to that in my therapy. Right now we're focusing on my grief and regular anxiety. I was curious if anyone with experience in OCD could tell me if they're a symptom or something entirely different?

I have this intrusive thought of paper cuts. It started probably a week after Megan died, I don't even think I got one. It happens at least a few times, it's worse if I'm near paper, but it happens even when I'm no where near any paper. I keep getting these thoughts of the paper slicing through my finger and the feeling of it. I'll get extremely anxious about it and start shuddering. It'll come at any time of day and it's extremely hard to get the thought out of my head. It gets into my head and the anxiety builds and I repeat the thought over and over and can't think of anything else.
Is this something related to my OCD or am I just being kind of a weirdo?

Symptomatic of OCD, yeah. Since you actually have OCD, it makes it further likely that this is just another obsession. Your compulsion is likely rumination, avoidance, and/or perhaps seeking reassurance; does this sound right to you?

Atomicc,
Wow. I can actually totally relate to this very thought and ensuing pattern. I'm not quite sure what to do with it, myself. People tell me to simply stop thinking about it...but, ah, not so easy. But...for what it's worth, know that you're not alone in dealing with this particular thing.
Duende

Doing what those plums tell you, is actually what makes OCD worse. ¬_¬ Trying not to think about something, is a big reason why OCD is what it is.

I know it's definitely rumination but I'm not sure what exactly my reason for it is, Maybe it is for avoidance. I've been kind of freaked by paper cuts since I was a kid because cuts on my fingers really freaks me out (I do not know why..) I haven't told anyone but my boyfriend about it so far, although it's causing me so much anxiety. I told my boyfriend and his exact words were "you're just being ridiculous", it really wasn't meant in a mean way. He just doesn't understand mental illness and obsessing over such odd thoughts seems ridiculous to him.

I'm kind of scared to bring it up in therapy because she said we're not going to start working on my OCD yet so I don't want to go...of course so to say? I'm afraid she'll be mad at me.

I am so happy to hear I'm not alone It really helps a lot! and I definitely agree it's not easy at all..it's literally impossible. When I try to stop I just get so much severe anxiety and it comes back full force!

If your therapist were to be angry at you, for telling her something that distresses you, then she would be pretty useless, in my opinion. I'd tell her; you guys don't have to work on it, but simply telling her and getting a quick view on it, might help you a bit.

I imagine there's some sort of history that links you to this obsession with paper-cuts.

That would maybe hurt me if a partner were to tell me that, albeit probably gradually, and quietly. Sometimes I tell myself that, but when someone else says it to you, particularly at a vulnerable time, it can sting a bit, or at least, that's how it goes for me.

It does hurt, yes. If I tried to explain to him he just couldn't understand. He knows I'm mentally unwell and accepts me for it.he'll just never know the actual feelings of it.

When I was about ten or eleven I took a razor blade and cut my finger open to see what it would do. I was freaked out for Weeks after. It might stem from that, I really hate finger cuts.

'o.O Jesus, sounds like that's the history of it.