[calneva86]

Hey guys, I dunno what the hell's wrong with me. I'm really bummed about my hair lately. I am a female and I have kept it short for the longest time. I just like it like that I guess. Sometimes I will cut it because it looks uneven or I am stressed. Sometimes it is "buzzed." I have always done it myself and have even got complements in the past. Some people have said I look like a model or something lol. Most of the time I just wear a hat and don't even think about it with the intention of growing it out. I was laid off for a couple of months but started a new job yesterday, so wearing a hat is out of the question. I guess I am nervous about how people perceive me. I didn't even realize hair cutting was a "thing" but it seems other people do it too. I am not really super obsessive about it but I always feel really weird sporting a crew cut or buzz cut because of what people will think of me in the hick town I live in. I have a loving spouse and a beautiful son, but I hate where I am in life. I hate where we live-there is nothing here. I have no friends other than my husband. I can't remember the last time I had a friend. I feel so awkward and weird. I am trying to finish my bachelor's and make something of myself. I feel like people don't get me though. Just want to feel like I belong but I get nervous around people not to mention I feel so ugly it's difficult for me to interact with people sometimes. I know it's probably in my head, but I just wish I had friends or that I had a meaningful job. Most people in the past just try to screw me over or take advantage that I am a really nice person. I wish I had people to talk to. My own mom hates me even though I've done nothing to her.

I am really a nice person and would do anything for people I care about. I am not usually the type to complain about my life or whatever but I don't know how else to get it all out so if someone even takes the time to read this I will start to feel a little bit better.

[BeaFlower]

Originally Posted by calneva86

Hey guys, I dunno what the hell's wrong with me. I'm really bummed about my hair lately. I am a female and I have kept it short for the longest time. I just like it like that I guess. Sometimes I will cut it because it looks uneven or I am stressed. Sometimes it is "buzzed." I have always done it myself and have even got complements in the past. Some people have said I look like a model or something lol. Most of the time I just wear a hat and don't even think about it with the intention of growing it out. I was laid off for a couple of months but started a new job yesterday, so wearing a hat is out of the question. I guess I am nervous about how people perceive me. I didn't even realize hair cutting was a "thing" but it seems other people do it too. I am not really super obsessive about it but I always feel really weird sporting a crew cut or buzz cut because of what people will think of me in the hick town I live in. I have a loving spouse and a beautiful son, but I hate where I am in life. I hate where we live-there is nothing here. I have no friends other than my husband. I can't remember the last time I had a friend. I feel so awkward and weird. I am trying to finish my bachelor's and make something of myself. I feel like people don't get me though. Just want to feel like I belong but I get nervous around people not to mention I feel so ugly it's difficult for me to interact with people sometimes. I know it's probably in my head, but I just wish I had friends or that I had a meaningful job. Most people in the past just try to screw me over or take advantage that I am a really nice person. I wish I had people to talk to. My own mom hates me even though I've done nothing to her.

I am really a nice person and would do anything for people I care about. I am not usually the type to complain about my life or whatever but I don't know how else to get it all out so if someone even takes the time to read this I will start to feel a little bit better.

I'm sorry that you feel in that way...have you been diagnosed with anything? I hope that you find friends in real life soon, but to begin I'm here if you want a friend to talk with

[Gus1234U]

i don't think this is the right place to put this post... i don't hear anything about OCD. but i do understand about the haircuts,, i keep mine short because i tend to pull it. i found that if i set the buzzer to an inch or so, it's not so shocking to others.

perhaps you want to put this post in Other Mental Health Issues or someplace that gets more traffic~ ?

best wishes~
Gus