[DarkFairy4]

My mind is always racing with thoughts. I had an abusive childhood, both physically and mentally abusive. I am constantly thinking about children being hurt by adults, I worry about things that never even happened or make up scenarios in my head about a child possibly being hurt. I can't stand the thought of someone hurting children. I just repeat bad things that have happened to me or friends in the past, I make up scenarios of children being hurt in my head that I cannot help. It is sort of driving me crazy. How can I stop these obsessive thoughts? I can't fix the world and this is all really bothering me.

I have been to therapy with two different therapists over the last few years and neither worked out well, I have also tried 6-7 anti depressants/anti anxieties meds but found some of the side effects too much to handle and the others did not work (so I gave up in that and my Dr. did too telling me I need to see someone else).

What can I do to stop these extremely terrible thoughts?

[vish007]

hi, have u tried mindfullness, i think the underlying problem is that u had bad experience in ur childhood but it can happen for many child now a days, but u r having these racist thoughts due to ocd, have u tried talking therapy for things happened in ur past, if u had done then u can do some simple things, when these thoughts occur write them in a diary
, for 1 week do this and only write 3 thoughts per day for morning , noon and evening.

now for next week notice that what u do when these thoughts occur, do u tried thought supression/replacemnt, mind control, u criticise ur self, if u do such things try to stop this behaviour and let these thoughts come and go, and see how d u feel now, u will much less distracted by them.

when u did this successfully now do some exposure therapy for this u have to find triggers for next week , what triggers these thoughts, it may be like
1)thinking about ur childhood
2)reading news about child harassment
3)watching some movie having child harrasment

note all the triggers and then expose ur self to these situtions like think about ur child hood more and more until u feel less anxious, read a lot about child harrasment etc.

i hope it will help u

[bluekoi]

DarkFairy4, Find a new doctor and therapist. It took me years to find a medication that worked for me! It's a long challenging road, but so worth the effort!

[BeaFlower]

If you want something that you can do also alone, while you are looking for another therapist, I tell you what I usually do with my intrusive thoughts: ignoring them. I mean to try to relax and to say: this is only an obsessive though, it's not happening in real life. Or something similar. It's difficult, I know, but it becomes easier after some time. You could try.
Maybe you already tried...but I hope that this helps however.
Good luck

I would also suggest finding another T too

[Terabithia]

I read a book on OCD - it's not my primary diagnosis but it does cause me a lot of disharmony - anyway, this book said to name these repetitive thoughts as something outside of yourself, like "the terrible monster," or something like that. It's easier to get rid of the thoughts if you say to yourself, " shut up you terrible monster, or trouble-maker, or whatever you want to call it, that's causing me so much distress, than "shut up these thoughts of mine that are driving me crazy." Put a name to them and when they enter your head, you can say something like "oh here comes.... again. It's an unwelcome visitor at your doorstep. I'm glad I remembered this, because I'm going to try it again - it really does help.

Do you like to write?

Keeping a journal may be a good idea to have some way to release your thoughts until you find a therapist who is more helpful to you. It helps me because I'm writing free of anyone else's judgment. You can say all you want for your eyes only. And possibly look back to understand yourself better.