[M3233]

I know OCD peaks and gets worse sometimes, but mine has been quite the rollercoaster lately. On my Effexor + Buspar I'll be fine for 2-3 weeks. It seems like I have very few symptoms and if I could get to a place where I am like that all the time, I think I'd be pleased. The for like 3-5 days, it flares up badly.

I can usually predict when it might happen because it kind of creeps up and peaks in the middle before going back down again. It's been like this on pretty much all the meds I've been on although the time period between 'episodes' might vary. Luvox really didn't work for me and it seemed like it was 1-2 weeks and I would barley get over something before it happened again. If I remember correctly, it was just constant awfulness when I was on a very low dose of meds (I can barley remember times without meds)

At least it's better than being miserable constantly, but I'm running into some issues with therapy. They ask me what I've been struggling with and I say "Well last week I was worried about X, but now I'm good." The T I just saw wanted me to write stories for exposures. I mean I feel like I could write really graphic stories about X, Y, and Z, but it probably wouldn't bother me. I did leave that T for other reasons so I haven't technically tried it yet though. I also tend to knock what I should do to help myself cope when I'm fine, yet all of that goes out the window when it flares up.

Anybody every experience anything like this?

[Skeezyks]

Hello M3233: Well... of course this is exactly what happens with a lot of us not only regarding therapy & self-help techniques, but also with regard to med's. We do what we need to do & start feeling good. Then we decide: "Oh... I don't need that anymore." And then, of course, we soon find ourselves heading back down into that pit we just climbed our way out of!

So I think, with regard to this kind of behavior, you have lots-&-lots of company. I send my best wishes to you with the hope that you will be able to find your way past this kind of on-again / off-again behavior...

[smartiesparty]

I have had similar issues, though my OCD is not being treated directly.
What I suggest you do is following your T's advice. You should write down the way you feel on sheets, at what time and what causes it. They are similar to some BPD work sheets.
If you find another therapist, you should probably hand in the notes you took about these episodes. That way you can compare, and you can find out what times are the most prone to these episodes.
Are you perhaps afraid of the OCD coming back, which makes you think about it all the time ?