[A. from H.]

Hi,

I'm Attila from Hungary and I have been suffering from OCD since last year. It developed from my GAD, I think. I don't really want to tell more about that, because now I feel, it is going to leave me alone, but OCD is still in my head. At first, I was really embarrassed to have silly rituals, and I thought, I was alone. I soon read about this disorder and I think, most of the thing written about it is true for me (sorry, if I had some grammar mistakes, note that I'm not a native speaker ). I'm always anxious, that something bad, or well let's say: something horrible will happen in the near future, if I can't do a ritual thing. People described such things below, that I also have. I'll go to see a psychologist next week. My rituals are like forehead touching, jumping with a chair, etc. and everything I do is must be in connection with number 3 or 7. Last weekend, I was a bit late from an architecture tour - yes, a lot of cool events, like this are organized in Budapest weekly -, because I made really wrong decisions (If I go with metro line 2, that's 2 stops... I hate number 2, so I shall go with another line... and like this). I simply can't enjoy my life, because of the horrible religious, sexual, etc. OCD-like thoughts. I think, that if I think of an irritating thing, that will happen in the future, so now I'm afraid of making a photo series about the buildings of my hometown, because something bad is going to happen. My brain can ruin every situation that I may like. I hope here somebody can help me. I hope to get medication soon, because these thoughts are really runaway now. I'm really young yet -17 years old- and I don't want OCD to rule my life. I'm really looking forward to get help.

Bye!

[Angelique67]

Hi Attila, it sounds very distressing to have these thoughts controlling what you can or cannot do. I think once you do get medication, it will help a lot, and you can look forward to a good life.

[Liz1965]

Hi I am 50 years old and I suffer from OCD,and it has affected my life so far that I have become so sick, I am on medication and see a therapist. I take Luvox twice a day. I know how you feel in some ways. I am still not doing good and I am here if you need to talk.If I have a sore on myself I become so obsessed with it cause I do not know what it is and I will worrying myself sick. I just wanted to let you know you are not alone. write to me when you can.

[A. from H.]

Hi!

Thank you for your help, Angelique and Liz1965! I was in a hurry writing my thread message in the morning. I forgot to tell you about that how many time do these obsessions take from my day: about in every 20 minutes I have to do a compulsion, when I'm nervous, often half minute and I'm really 16 yet, sorry for mistakes. I usually can't block my thoughts and they're really irritating - as you know. Although, today wasn't a horror day - thank God -, because I've started to think what happy experiences will I have on my school trip this week. I hope, in the summer, I'll have enough time to cure my OCD. Dear Liz1965, you can write me here: k.attila1998 (gmail).

Have a good day and take care! Bye!

[Liz1965]

thanks. I will write. take care

[Angelique67]

I hope you'll have a great time on your school trip, Attila!

[MusicMike]

It's tough having OCD. The constant anxiety and out of control thinking is one of the most brutal of mental disorders, I think. I have pure-O OCD and I've made progress through therapy and medication, but it took quite a while. I used to be on Luvox, but when I developed fibromyalgia pain I switched to Cymbalta which I think is not as good for the OCD. I'm thinking of going back to Luvox or another SSRI (maybe Viibryd) even though it won't help the fibromyalgia as much. The OCD is really the worst problem.

My Dad and one of my friends have OCD also, and it's so sad the way it impacts our relationships. It's like half the time my friend or my Dad is lost to me because they're caught up in obsessions.

[BlackSheep79]

I cannot take meds for OCD because it induces mania with my Bipolar. I'm 35, but when I was your age the OCD had literally taken over my life. My day was filled with rituals to alleviate the anxiety. I learned CBT which saved my life since I'm not able to take medications. I believe that medications are not a fix all for mental illness, and therapy is very beneficial. I wish you the best. You have such a great attitude

[A. from H.]

Thank you for your kind replies again!
I mentioned before, that I have "religious" ocd, so scrupolosity and it was really bad last weekend. It's already summer, but I simply can't enjoy the holidays. Mike, I saw you had that type of this disorder when you were younger, maybe we could talk about it.
I hope to be calmer soon, but I can't go to a psychologist right now. Maybe next week. It would be a great help, if somebody could write me daily. So here is my FB profile:attila.kiss.9822924 (Facebook). I hope to contact with a kind helper soon.
Good to hear that my appearence is 'great', Blacksheep, it's might be because of the use of the emojis - this time I tried to decrease their number, because my writing was full of them. I hope this day will be better. At last, I'd like to enjoy my life.
I'm so pleased with this site, and you are really friendly to me!
Have a nice day, bye!

[MusicMike]

Atilla I sent you a FB friend request.