[conceptember]

About 2 weeks ago I was completely in love with my girlfriend. We have been together for a year and 6 months and in those two weeks I was also suffering from a random bout of insomnia and depression. It was horrible. I eventually got my sleep back and the depression faded but something much worse kicked in; my OCD. My gf and I were texting and she was telling me that her head hurt and that it has been like this for a few days. And an evil voice in my head said “well I wish I could tell you I care but I don’t”. I knew this was my OCD but this time I couldn’t fight it. I was scared from that day that I didn’t care about her, and since that day my emotions and my “in love” feeling have completely faded. I used to get anxious if she didn’t text back for an hour or two and be so happy when she finally did. And now if she takes awhile to text back, it doesn’t affect me. I don’t get anxious anymore, what I get anxious about is that those feelings are never going to come back and that I’m going to fall out of love with her and break up with her. I want my feelings back. My OCD took them from me and now I cant even feel for my girlfriend. I’m extremely dependednt and clingy to her and now it is the complete opposite and it’s depressing me. I’m so f****** sad. Now I’m so irritable around her. I want to be in love again. I don’t want anyone else but her and I want to spend my life with her. Typing that even felt weird. Please tell me what I can do to stop feeling this way. I’m desperate. I want my happiness and love back for my gf. This is ruining my life. I would rather go through depression again than this.

[panick_is_gift]

intrusive thoughts are really disturbing and scares you. I am also suffering from 3 months and intensity is becoming less now after many study and exercise.
Do the following things which will sure help you in reducing your intensity and show you your feeling of love which anxiety is making you blind
1. Mindfulness meditation in the morning
2. Milk every morning with good breakfast, 1 apple every day. sandwich with brown bread, put lettuce as much as you want
3. Breathing exercise every morning
4. accept your feelings of intrusive thoughts, give them place in your mind, when those thoughts are coming don't stop, let them come fully and imagine more worst if you can. slowly they will get boring and will not disturb you.
5. believe in god and don't mind your intrusive thoughts
6. One of my friend have same thoughts as me with whom i go walking everyday, he is not scared, but i am scared with same thoughts. I am practicing not to believe those thoughts and laughing at them