[leahnc]

I have a history and diagnosis of OCD. I was on celexa and klonopin but have been off them for a year at least. My life was going great, but since quitting meds I seem to let my emotions run my life. Im so sick of the cycle. Ugh

Ive been feeling guilty about most of my decisions lately. Nothing I have done justifies guilt, but nonetheless I find some reason to feel like I made a bad choice, or I was dishonest in some way?

Anyway the reason for my post, I've been applying for jobs like crazy and to be honest the past 10 months have been really rough. I left a job of 2 1/2 years in October prior to that I left a job of 9 years due to extreme anxiety that resulted in hospitalized due to depression/anxiety. Couldnt get FMLA so I resigned.

Anyway since last October 2014 I've had 4 jobs. I cannot believe it, what in the world is wrong with me? They are all call centers and I just feel out of place in these types of jobs? My current employer is the 4th job and I have not quit that one despite the fact that it is also a call center, I'm making myself stick it out as to not tarnish my job history more Plus I just started 2 weeks ago.

Another dilemma I'm experiencing: Everything I do lately I feel like Im going to get into some kind of legal trouble? Minor things like leaving a job off my employment application (I could not possibly list every job), Oh and yesterday I clicked on a Twitter user I didn't know who followed me and there were inappropriate images on the account, I blocked it, reported it and closed my Twitter account. I was pissed and wondered why this person even followed me? Also I Fear not filling out forms correctly or missing something on the forms (like forms that ask for financial information), Fear of getting into trouble for quitting jobs. I feel like everything I do constitutes some kind of fault or i'm going to suffer ramifications down the road? Im an honest person with morals but lately I feel like I cant do anything right? What is going on - Any suggestions? Thank you

[introspectiveme]

Twitter is full of trolls with problems. They followed you to get you to click on their profile. The offensive pictures they put up were probably meant to offend or disturb, maybe this troll gets a kick out of offending people. You are not responsible for what other people put up on their profiles. Internet can bring the worst out of people, you did the right thing by reporting and blocking him. Maybe you can get back on twitter when you're feeling better.

maybe call center jobs aren't just meant for you. if this 4th call center job doesn't work out for you, maybe you could look for a different kind of job that you're sure you can do for at least a year, even if it's a 'filler' job, that should bring some stability back into your life.

It seems like the meds were working for you, talking to a therapist and getting back on them could benefit you too.

[Nike007]

Ya exactly. People, well mainly trolls, put up dumb images to make people mad/offended/disturbed. Don't worry about them. Reporting is probably the best thing to do in that situation. But you did the right thing.

I'm sure that you won't get into legal trouble for leaving out a job on your job application. I'm sure older people don't put jobs they did when they were in their teens.

Ya, if going off your medication has worsen your anxiety/obsessions/compulsions, then Iw would recommend you talk to your therapist or whoever and get it back on.

Hope this helps .