[Himynameis123101101]

Hi,

I've been researching on the Internet for a long time because I have been feeling guilty about loads of things I have done in the past and I recently stumbled across a forum on OCD and I feel like I may have this disorder because I keep having feelings of guilt about things I may have done to others.

For example I am terrified I may have made someone feel violated, maybe if I touched a guys arm when I was flirting with him or even in just a platonic way. Or if I grinded on my friends and they didn't actually like it or if I gave my friend a peck and they didn't like it. Just really silly young college stuff but now I've been reading on consent and touching and I'm worried I have violated boundaries and it's making me feel awful especially if I touched a guys arm when they didn't want me to! I just didn't even think about asking and I shouldn't do it now

Please help am I a bad person?!?!

[Travelinglady]

No, dear one. You are not a bad person. But you are being hard on yourself. Please talk to a counselor about how you are feeling. Okay?

[Himynameis123101101]

Originally Posted by Travelinglady

No, dear one. You are not a bad person. But you are being hard on yourself. Please talk to a counselor about how you are feeling. Okay?

I can't I don't have access to a counsellor at the moment. I will in a few months time but right now I don't. Are you sure because I don't like being touched by guys a lot maybe because they are too forward and I worry I am too

[Nishan]

first i'm with Travelinglady you are not a bad person

guilty feeling is a form of OCD and it will apperar with out any real/true reason

first you should realize 'its a fake feeling' and tell it to your mind

even if its a really a voilating action now you dont do it now so convince your
mind "past is past"

[Himynameis123101101]

Originally Posted by Nishan

first i'm with Travelinglady you are not a bad person

guilty feeling is a form of OCD and it will apperar with out any real/true reason

first you should realize 'its a fake feeling' and tell it to your mind

even if its a really a voilating action now you dont do it now so convince your
mind "past is past"

So did I violate somebody? I didn't mean to! You can harm people with this I feel like (TW suicide) live with myself if I had to deal with doing this to somebody I always see myself as someone who protect others from these violations especially other women, I've always wanted to help I'm very into feminism. I don't want to be a hypocrite!! Sorry don't feel like you have to reply I am not sure if I am allowed to dump my feelings on someone in the forums