impulse to get myself a star badge

so,

on this kids tv show (at least in the newer episodes), they give away star badges to the kids at the end, to thank them for being on the show.

and, well,

I need one
impulse tells me I don't just need one, I need about 50 of them so I can store them away.

I'm obviously never going to go on the show, and I can't write to the show saying hi, can I have 50 star badges (I don't even have kids),

but impulse says I need them, and I need them now.

A number of years ago, around the time I first became familiar with the transgender community that existed at the time on YouTube, I happened to see some LGBT rings on ebay. I wanted one. I told myself, though, that although GID has been something I've struggled with my whole life, I'm not really a part of the LGBT community. So why would I even want such a thing, let alone buy one? So I didn't.

As it happened though, I found a silver ring, made by a Navaho craftsman, that had squares of different colored minerals in it. It reminded me of the LGBT rings I had seen. So I bought that instead. It became my secret acknowledgement to my connection to the LGBT community. And several people have commented on it when I've worn it in the past. However nowadays I seldom leave the house. So it rarely gets worn.

I think I know what you mean,

I'm not a kid, why do I need a star badge that has some animated stars on it, their are plenty of other things just as good. I am not sure I could get one even if I wanted one.

yesterday I tried to search for an address to write to the presenter, but I couldn't find one anywhere.

it's not stopped me though. I think part of the reason this star badge is so important to me is that I never had any certificates, or any congratulations at school, so I need this.

one for every month of my life

to show I am a star..

this morning I am in tears over it even.

I need that badge