[girlcharm18]

ok so yesterday a very good friend of mine came over to discuss my recent very unwanted ocd I was thinking about how ridiculous it and so dumb! so we started talking about it him giving me reassurance that I was fine and all that so I strated to look back on all my fears and phobias throughtout the year and my life and when I started having obessions it was around 11 or twelve some fears alittle earlier so these were my fears throughtout my life! I had the tremendous fear of vomiting and would freak out if I would feel sick so I noticed I would say something in my head a million times to make sure I wouldn't throw up stupid huh! then forever it was a fear of ecoli or samenella I would have to wash the spatula or what whatever I was using if I felt it got contaminated when infact it was even close to the meat even more dumb!then it went to the having a tumor, heart diesease, blood clots stroke heart attack hantavirus and the plauge even dumber! then it was westnile virus and recalls I would be on the net for hours looking up everyone of these symptoms and risk factors I mean it was awful!! then its not over lol then it was schitzophrenia and pyschosis! and becoming andrea yates!! how aweful I hate it now I have the intursive unwanted thoughts that make me feel like crap I mean it seriously bothers me I have talked about them in other posts
I have been reading up on these recent ones for about three months now about these thoughts and are all related to ocd or harmocd I have read on other sites about this and its an awful thing to have but such a relief to talk about them and not be judged!some days are better then others I say and that eventually this will end and betaken over ny another obession! can't wait to see what that one is lol!

[pegasus]

I am glad you felt able to talk about it with your friend and able to talk about it here.

I do suggest though that you seek professional help from someone in your area as you don't have to live that way.

[girlcharm18]

thanks I know its hard to live this way and sometimes things do get hard and I think about going to see a therapist but I know how they are here they will tell me what's wrong why do u feel this way here take this so on so on but I figured hey I can do all that with my friend he's so very supportive as well as my boyfriend I don't talk about it much with him he doesn't really understand much but im getting through this just like the other obessions all I need to do is stay positive!! positive thinking!

[e_sort]

i didn't have much respect for therapy either, and I'm not sure I do now, but I thought i knew how it was going to go also and it was different. it's different than talking to a friend. or at least in my case it was.

I think it's good to be able to laugh at obsessions if you can. david sedaris wrote a lot of stories about it. honestly you look at it from the outside once in a while, and it just seems ridiculous.

one time i was convinced i had parked the car illegally and would get a ticket and when i got back to check it (because i had to check it) i hadn't parked illegally. so i didn't get a ticket. but i swear to god, I worried about that nonexistent ticket all day. "don't forget to pay the ticket!" i said to myself. "they'll suspend your license if you don't! there will be a huge fine if you forget!" then "THERE IS NO TICKET FOR THE LOVE OF GOD."

over and over.

it's funny and not funny at the same time. i don't know if positive thinking can get you all the way through but it helps, that's for sure.

[gimmeice]

((((((((((((((( girlcharm ))))))))))))))
Sometimes I am able to laugh at my obsessions after I have made it past them. I will say though that I have found therapy very helpful for my ocd, I thought when I started therapy they were going to tell me that these obsessions were all my imagination and to just get over it already. Needless to say that is not how it turned out, I am learning ways of coping with the obsessions now.

[digdug]

I discovered I had OCD when I was with my wife (then my girlfriend), so I've had someone to talk to about it for many years. Close friends know about it too (when I have close friends, which is rare). It is extremely helpful to have a support group...and yes, finding the humour in your obsessions can be a great help.

I do have to chip in my support for therapy, though...as long as you find the right person. I swear, with my psych/therapist I spent most of our sessions talking about all the problems in the world. Just talking, you know? We'd let the coversation run wherever it did. He would ask me a lot about my family, and it was nice to have someone to talk about them with...he helped me see how my environment growing up contributed so much to my issues.