My OCD Guilt and Shame: How I dealt with it, and how I overcame it

Hello everyone, I'm hoping to share my story as a way to help others who deal with this guilt and shame OCD places on you...

My story begins about 2 years ago, when my symptoms started to emerge, what were these sudden thoughts telling me to do things or something bad will happen, why was I constantly having bad thoughts of my past replayed in my head to the point where my guilt was almost unbearable, and why was I feeling so shameful for everything I'd ever done?

Recently, it got so bad to the point where I was seriously considering killing myself, feeling that I was too bad to live, and that I couldn't deal with these thoughts again. But, there was still that little glimmer of hope inside me, and I endured through it, and with the help of my doctors and close friends and family, I overcame the feeling of being suicidal, but this was not the end of the thoughts.

The thoughts still remained, still told me I was awful, still tried to guilt and shame me and tell me to do certain tasks and ask for reassurance. You see, I would get these false memories convincing me of things that were not true, and I would get seriously convinced of these things, and I would ask for reassurance, that was my compulsion, and it would relieve my obsessions.

In such a hopeless situation, how did I finally overcome my OCD?

1) I realized most people forgive and forget, if you were to ask someone for an apology for something you did years ago, they'd probably not remember it, but if they did, they would most likely forgive you.

2) These obsessive thoughts are most of the time, if not all the time, not true, this one is hard for fellow sufferers, but it's something I had to realize myself in order to recover from it's devastating grip on my life. Whenever I put my foot down to my compulsions, I realized, that the events they told me were going to happen if I didn't do it, didn't happen, and it made me feel better, I still get the thoughts, but they are much easier to block out now.

3) You learn from your mistakes, if you were a bad person yesterday, and a good person today, you've changed, and people will perceive and look at you differently than the day before. Mistakes are what make us human, they are what make us learn, and what make us change, and that is how we better ourselves as human beings. Focusing only on your mistakes destroys you, and it does nothing to help you move on.

With these 3 viewpoints, I was able to finally overcome a lot of my OCD/Obsessive thought patterns, and make me feel a lot better, I hope my story was able to encourage or help you too. I hope all of you get better from your OCD as I have, and I'm hoping you have a great day tomorrow, stay amazing!