Add to "Top Ten Things that suck"

1.) Focusing far too much for my own good on the bad, or less than pleasant, aspects in my life. Then not being able to figure out the things that do make me happy because I fade those out to focus solely on the bad. Even when I do know some of those things, it doesn't matter, because I'm too content with the unhappy because it's all too familiar and safer.

2.) Being afraid of success because I've never really been successful. And when I am, I just think of it as no big deal.

3.) Eating too much, not exercising nearly enough and than constantly complaining about it. And then lacking the motivation (even more importantly, the energy) to actually do anything about it.

4.) Being at least somewhat confident while in clothes, but being embarrassed, distraught and disgusted when I see myself naked or while having sex with my husband. It also happens when I get a picture taken of myself. The pictures, I can deal with by avoiding the situation. However, the sex part is getting ridiculous. It's gotten to the point where's it's ruined my sex drive to a decent degree.

5.) Feeling more alone than I could possibly have when I wasn't married. I feel completely alone and unloved, even when I know full well that I have quite a few close people (including my husband and daughter) that love me and care about me quite a lot.

6.) Feeling the way that I do for 5. It's completely unreasonable.

7.) Not being able to take a compliment and not having 'motivation speeches' work. Maybe motivational speeches was the wrong term, but I suppose it still applies. No matter how much someone says something (biggest example: my husband tells me that he finds me very attractive, and I have absolutely no doubts about that. He really does. However, it doesn't matter. It doesn't do anything for my self-esteem), they can say it until they're blue in the face, it won't matter.

There were 100 posts to this thread, so I thought I'd start it up again!

101:

1: chigger bits
2: having to scrath itchy chigger bits
3: skin getting raw fro chigger bits
4: over the counter meds not working for chigger bits
5: scabs from all the scratching due to chigger bits
6: legs and feet looking terrible due to chigger bits
7: not being able to shave my hairy legs due to chigger bits
8: not sleeping well because I have to try not scatch my scabby legs
9: scars from last years chigger bits still being visible
10: chiggers!

I think I see a theme here

boredom
loneliness
paranoia
impulses
obsession
drama
anxiety
anger
apathy
regret

1. Being forced to take medication under supervision every day.
2. Being unemployed.
3. Job hunting.
4. Having 2 Dr's that I have to keep happy so that they won't get my driver's licence revoked.
5. Cleaning.
6. Being lonely but being too afraid to reach out and make friends.
7. It being 35 C with humidity in the 40's.
8. Wanting to self injure all the time.
9. Being terrified of sexual intimacy due to CSA
10. Needing multiple meds to function.

Kind of along the lines of beholden - bed bugs! Bed bugs and everything that entales; the bites, the scars, the embarrassment, and having to have a lawyer just to get decent pest control to get rid of them.

1. Trying to make yourself happy for once but backfires.

2. Feeling hopeless because of #1.

3. Trying to do something new, but ending it because I become too frustrated.

4. Giving myself too many things to do, which I'm capable of doing, but never getting to regardless.

5. Forgetting where I came from and what my original goals were in life.

6. Being apart of the crowd for a little while, then feeling like an outcast.

7. Keeping problems to myself because I don't trust anyone.

I don't know about 8-10.

Oh and I can't quite believe I forgot this one.

Being alcoholic.

1. Kidney stones

2. Meeting a guy who you adore and who lives 8 hours away from you so now you are quickly becoming addicted to emailing him (and it has only been a week).

3. Still adoring your therapist regardless of guy in #2.

4. Being OCD.

5. Self injuring for the first time.

6. BP and the oil spill makes me so angry I could completely lose my mind.

7. Having to go to work when I just want to sleep because of number 1, it hurts!!

8. Not wanting to go to therapy anymore because of number 3; I am getting so tired of it.

9. Worrying about EVERYTHING.

10. Money problems. Ugh.

Chronic Pain with no complete relief (no matter how strong a pain pill ya take it doesn't take the pain away).

Emotional Pain to rival the physical pain

Grief

how many ways are there to write pain?

1.Trying to trust people

2.Break ups.

3. Arguments/fighting

4. Being broke XD till I get paid !!

5. being sick

6. School [ its super stressful]

7.Ignorant people

8. Gaining weight.

9. Loosing control.

10. Dying.

life
having almost no control over how you feel and what you think about
love
family
texas weather
hurricanes
country, rap and hip hop "music" (no offense to anyone, but I hate it)
disappointing the people you care about most
obsessing over the past

I could do this all day, but I'll stop lol

Oh yeah, can't forget about laundry

1. having this 'frozen shoulder' condition.
2. At the moment I hate thistle weeds -just came in from pulling them and I was sweating bullets.
3. It sucks when I forget that I have garlic bread in the oven and burn it.
4. I've always hated ironing.
5. It completely sucks that I've neglected my exercising and now I have to start at square one.
6. sucks when I'm sleeping and someone calls.
7. when someone leave an empty milk container on the fridge.

Having something in my teeth and noone tells me, then later I look in the mirror and realize Ive looked like a jackass for an hour or so.

Being in a loveless relationship
Having your children taken from you
Growing up in an abusive enviroment
Suck-a-tash (lima beans)
Not getting the respect and appreciation you deserve
Depression
Liers
I could go on and on, sorry!

Being married to a cheating spouse

Keep bumping my new piercing...OUCH!!!
Not being able to go swimming because of said piercing
Boredom
Friends that don't care
Oily hair after a day of not showering (a DAY!)

Unemployed

"suck-a-tash! good one!

Thanks everyone and I'm sorry for all the things that suck in your lives today.

Tomorrow is a new day!