[Michah]

My goodness.....

Talk about hit with a mullet......beaten with a big stick......ten rounds with Mike Tyson......phew....

Borderline PD core schemas like petulant devils....

malfunctioning hormones.....

Fear, fear, fear.....

Sad, sad, sad

Sick, sick, sick

So, so tired......bone marrow fatigue.....

Grief......

Suspicion.......

Trauma.......

Hyper-vigilance.......

Today.......encased in concrete.......buckled at the knees......by ILLNESS....

Sweet, merciful crap.......all things in flux, all things in motion.....this too shall pass.......breathe through it.......and love, love, love.......now I am going to have a cry......phew.....

Thanks all......

Michah

[notz]

The good news is you still have both ears!!

[Naturefreak]

Here for you Micah , sending you many hugs
and know I care . This to shall pass sweetie . Love you

[Sabrina]

I am sorry it is so rough for you right now. Hugs to you!!

(((((((Michah)))))))))))))))) breath threw it my friend...know we are here...im sorry things are hard right now....know i care.....give me your fear for just awhile I promise i will take good care of it....as you know lol You can have it back when your ready to deal with it ,.....right now rest and relax breath breath breath....
love to you .....Go ahead and cry if you need to ....been there...it helps
sending you a big hug

[VickiesPath]

(((((((((((((((((Michah))))))))))))))))))

Rest for a while.

[depressedalaskan]

(((((Michah))))) Been there - keep up the fight, keep posting, we will win some day.

[christinasponias]

I know how you feel, but think that after horrible times and terrible experiences, wisdom and maturity arrive.

If you are sick, this is because you are still alive, and if you are still alive, you still have the chance to transform reality with your courage.

Courage is the very last hope when everything is already lost. It is one’s desperate attempt to survive and go ahead, because there is no other way.

If you won’t survive, you’ll never finish the road, and never find any treasure.

You have to continue with courage, and believe in health.

[christinasponias]

I know how you feel, but think that after horrible times and terrible experiences, wisdom and maturity arrive.

If you are sick, this is because you are still alive, and if you are still alive, you still have the chance to transform reality with your courage.

Courage is the very last hope when everything is already lost. It is one’s desperate attempt to survive and go ahead, because there is no other way.

If you won’t survive, you’ll never finish the road, and never find any treasure.

You have to continue with courage, and believe in health.

[hurtingintn]

sent to you

[Fuzzybear]

(((((((((((((((( michah )))))))))))))))

love
furry paws

[nowheretorun]

(((Micah)))))) sorry you were having a down experience... i hope you feel better soon

[kebsfroggy]

As a frog of little brain I can feel your pain but have no answers. The post by christinasponias says it very well.

Originally Posted by christinasponias

I know how you feel, but think that after horrible times and terrible experiences, wisdom and maturity arrive.

If you are sick, this is because you are still alive, and if you are still alive, you still have the chance to transform reality with your courage.

Courage is the very last hope when everything is already lost. It is one’s desperate attempt to survive and go ahead, because there is no other way.

If you won’t survive, you’ll never finish the road, and never find any treasure.

You have to continue with courage, and believe in health.

Sure hope you are feeling better soon.


kebs

( michah ))))))))))))))) how are you today my friend

[Michah]

Thank you all for much love and hugs.......and meaningful words.....

I am philosophical.......as always......my journey takes me far and brings me closer at the same time.......sometimes it is overwhelming......

Yesterday after I posted this I took half a valium to restore my vestibular issues and:

went to my library and got two new Anne Rice books to read(Anne Rice....author Interview with a Vampire and the Vampire Chronicles......LOVE her writing)

Helped my man buy some stuff from the manly men at Bursons Auto parts.....very nice to me.....and we "talked cars".......I haven't a clue! But it was a nice masculine moment.......love the way men speak to each other

Then went to my local Chinese supermarket and revelled in the lovely language and spoke "chinese" to the lovely elderly woman there selling tasty food.......I can't speak chinese so we just ended up laughing together and she gave me this wonderful smile and a slight bow of the head......she knew me, on the inside.......I feel so comfortable with their culture and feel like I have come home in a way.......much feeling and joy......

And my hope was restored.......

Then I had a big blow up that night.......long story but I yelled at my son on the phone out of fear and fright, and then firmly spoke to the father of my sons friend.......I felt that due dilligence was not shown and my son showed much lack of responsibility.......but my son came home, and he is safe.......but was in trouble!! I calmed immediately when he was in our home again........and safe within my embrace.......then he got a talking to.....

Today, peace reigns once more........and I remember that lovely woman in the chinese supermarket and the wisdom of her eyes and the knowing of her smile........and I am thankful......

All is still........

Big, big hugs to you all.......thank you for loving...

Michah

((((Michah)))))))))) Im so glad all is still now
peace is a good thing