When will it ever be enough?!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm so fed up with all this! I'm fed up being hit, kicked, sworn at, called bad sexual words or being spit in the face and over the body by my son. He's sooo violent! Stupid idiots at: the social services, the disability unit in our community, school, disability unit at the hospital... they don't have a clue concerning what we're going through and they don't even do half of what is needed.
Network meeting tomorrow - WONDERFUL! NOT going to be nice!

The assistant and I rolled around with our son on the lawn this afternoon after him hitting, kicking, knocking the back of his head on the assistant's head, spitting on us both...
Poor daughter of mine stood a little distance away watching. Luckily hubby came home after a while so I could take care of our daughter.

At the same time I'm trying to endure the fact that our creep for a neighbour is around every time I'm out in the garden.

I'm sorry you're so frustrated right now Daynnight. Since you're a new friend I'm not aware of your situation with your son. But I want you to know I'll pray God will give you strength and relief soon. Good for you for going into your yard and showing that creepy neighbor you won't be a prisoner in your own house. Even though your icons are sad the 'pulling hair out' is funny a little but I 'm sure that's how you feel right now. Take care of yourself.

Thank you so much, lynn P.!

Your support mean a lot to me.

((((((( lynn P. ))))))))

/daynnight

Wow daynnight - I can't even imagine what you're going through. People say being a mother is a wonderful thing and very rewarding - and almost always add that it's difficult too. It looks like you got a heaping helping of "difficult." I hope you'll be able to get some help and a little reprieve soon.

I'm sorry... maybe I'm posting too much about my daily life with my son and his issues (Asperger's disorder and ADHD traits) affecting our entire family. I don't mean to whine. I have to vent. I'm not used to open up about personal matters all that much, but over the last couple of years I've had to force myself to open the door now and then to be able to go on.
After years and years of struggle with my son I'm drained. I'm running out of patience. The worst part is the fact that he can be just adorable at times... but it unfortunately doesn't weigh up for the horrible hours upon hours of distress in this house. I feel so for him but he is hurting us. If only the professionals would get their butts off of their chairs and start working not only on the surface.
This afternoon was crazy... then this evening he suddenly offered to help his sister record a TV-show on one of his own tapes. He even said goodnight to his sister in a gentle tone before going to bed.
All this back and forth... never knowing what might happen the next second is doing my head in!

Tomorrow is approaching with the network meeting in its hand... I hope I can sleep some... Need to get some done tomorrow!

Thank you for "listening"!

/daynnight

Oh, Nina, I'm so sorry. I had no idea you had such a challenge. It must be awful trying to find some peace.

If there is anything any of us can do for you, please don't hesitate to ask. We'll send some prayers your way.

Daynnight

It's obvious you love your son very much. Your words only show your frustration, and rightfully so. Your actions - coming here to vent - prove your dedication to remain strong for your son.

I don't know what to say really... more than this (click on the link and listen):



Thank you for being like a cyber family in the way that you all care about one another. I treasure your support and please know I'm ready to listen to you as well.

I've been talking to my son's new psychologist for the first time this morning for 45 min on the phone. She seemed professional and compassionate.
2 hours left until the network meeting... hmm...
something has to be done today! I've got a list of things in my head, ready to discuss with the others. I'll write some of it down now before leaving. We (hubby and I and the assistant working yesterday) talked about some of it yesterday evening. Now we need to get our message through to the others at the meeting. We ALL need to work more TOGETHER as a TRUE NETWORK.

/daynnight

Writing down your ideas sounds good; I have mental struggles yet you struggle mentally, emotionally, and physically a triple whammy...may you find peace in knowing everyone who responded did so in a real, thoughtful way

((((((((((((( daynnight & family )))))))))))))))))

You are able to vent here anytime sweety. You need somewhere you can do so, safely and without feeling worse than you already do.

I'm sure with son getting older, larger, stronger, his actions may bring some real harm to himself and others. There is no way you can handle him as he grows without some help from these so called professionals. I pray you get it very very soon hon.

Keeping you all in my prayers and sending you much love


sabby