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Nov 02, 2009, 09:37 PM
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I am so scared and anxious and so many other things right now. I can't sleep anymore either my mind just never stops going and thinking about everything going on right now.
My mom comes home friday or saturday she hasn't decided which day she is coming back yet from her 3 week vacation aka break from reality. I really don't want her coming home at all because things are just going to get so much worse than they are right now. I am so severely stressed out ALL the time and its getting to much to handle anymore. I am so physically and emotionally drained and I just want to be done. I thought I was always stressed out because of her and yes there are things that she does that stress me out a lot but I bring most of it on myself and her coming home is adding on to my anxiety and stress. I don't even know what I'm going to say to her because I honestly don't want her home things are working so well with her gone and having it be me and my siblings and my dad. I can't do this and I'm scared for her to come home because there are things we HAVE to talk about before I have a mental breakdown. Some of things that need to be said are me telling her I need to go see the therapist I've been emailing and calling a few times. I am going down such a bad road right now and I don't know who I am or what I am ment to do in this world. I just don't know what to do.... I'm scared, stressed, anxious, mad, hurt, upset, and never happy so I thought writing her would be a good start. Lots of Love ~Morgan~
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Nov 02, 2009, 10:08 PM
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Morgan, I am so sorry that you are scared. I remember when I was a teenager I was petrified of my mother (I am actually still scared of her). Whenever there was anything I was worried about, something I thought she wouldn't like or would be mad about, I would worry myself into basically puking and crying. I was soo, soo scared of her. Maybe you could talk to your dad and have him sit down with you when your mom gets home if you have things you really have to talk to her about. Also, tell your dad you want to see a therapist, he can help support you on that point with you mom as well.
When I was upset, or scared or all the million things my mom made/makes me feel, I would often write to her to try to get it out (she would never let me talk to her face to face without it turning into something horrible). How has she responded to letters from you in the past? Good luck, sweetheart. Let us know how you are. Btw, how old are you? Are you old enough to move out? |
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Nov 03, 2009, 01:46 AM
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 Morgan
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Nov 03, 2009, 01:58 AM
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Hi Morgan, I'm sorry you're feeling so uncomfortable.
I'm wondering if you could talk to your Dad about wanting to see the therapist. I'm glad you decided to write out what you are feeling. That can be relieving, at least temporarily.
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Nov 03, 2009, 02:18 AM
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Well I am surprised that your mother scares you, how is it possible... If you could explain it a little, we might help you. But I cannot get the idea of a scary mother...
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Nov 03, 2009, 09:29 AM
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Hi Morgan
It's good that you're addressing your issues (well I guess it's hard to ignore) And you're seeking help from a therapist. I'm just curious, what is it about your Mom that's stressing you out? Is there something in particular, or is she just a difficult and stressful person to have around or to talk to about sensitive matters? Anyway, goodluck, and I hope it all works out for you.
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Nov 03, 2009, 10:56 AM
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Wow, lots of mothers are scary.
Mine, for instance, was critical to a horrible and abusive degree. Anything I did or said she would twist into something totally different and usually into something that she could either beat me for (not spank, closed fist punching, hair pulling, etc...) or verbally abuse me. The verbal abuse was the worst. And its horrible, horrible when people don't believe you or understand how your mother could do those things. Just because someone gives birth doesn't mean they are automatically a nice person or a decent parent. How your mother treats you and the small nuances of her speech can greatly effect a person, especially a girl child. |
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Nov 04, 2009, 01:14 AM
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