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Old Apr 03, 2010, 08:20 AM
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For years I've had cripplingly low self esteem because of how I viewed my disability. I thought no one would want to be my friend. I thought no one would want to date me. I thought I should just stay alone in my room all the time and not talk to people because no one would want to be around me. I thought I was a freak, subhuman at times. I felt broken deep down inside.

But now I realize....that my disability is only one aspect of who I am.

I am so much more than my disability. I am so much more than a face that is "different".

Other people saw that for years but I couldn't ever see it myself.

Now I do and I feel like a door has been opened. I was stuck in this little room and now a door has opened and I'm looking outside and ...

It makes me happy.
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Old Apr 03, 2010, 10:36 AM
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That's a wonderful revelation Sophia. So glad you feel happy How's the studying going for you?
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Old Apr 03, 2010, 12:49 PM
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(((((((((SophiaG))))))))))

I am overjoyed to see this, and to have recived your message this morning.

My dear friend I am happy you see this, You are one of the greatest friend's I have had, I am happy you shared this with us, You are truly an inspiration.

super big duckling hugs!! *quacks*

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Old Apr 03, 2010, 01:01 PM
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Sounds like you were lost....only to be found..

I am sure your face is not 'different'......I have a feeling it is beautiful
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Old Apr 03, 2010, 01:10 PM
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Hello, SophiaG. What is the most exiting thing you have seen through the open door?
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Old Apr 03, 2010, 01:15 PM
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That is so inspiring Sophia!!!
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Old Apr 03, 2010, 01:19 PM
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Thank you for sharing this with us, SophiaG...
It may also plant a seed in the minds of others who define themselves by their disability...perhaps that seed will grow in beauty and grace.
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Old Apr 03, 2010, 02:46 PM
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Beautiful, just wonderfull. Huggs to you!
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Old Apr 03, 2010, 06:46 PM
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Hello, SophiaG. What is the most exiting thing you have seen through the open door?
Opportunity. (to grow...to make friends...to seize things which come my way...to date a man I think is cute.) Freedom.

Freedom from my painful, limiting, crippling, low self-esteem.

That is what I see through the open door. I also feel a fresh breeze of air come into a room where the air had stagnated.

(metaphorically of course)
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Old Apr 03, 2010, 06:56 PM
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That's a wonderful revelation Sophia. So glad you feel happy How's the studying going for you?
I managed to hand in an essay, ask my professors for help writing more essays, and have to write 2 tonight.

Wish me luck! <3
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